it doesn't mean much...it doesn't mean anything at all...
i find it funny how that even when you're drunk you can still manage to post on lj. why is that?
i watched the yellow traffic lights dance upon cait's dashboard and i wonder if division and newport are where i really want to be or if they are really just an innocent memory of what used to be. i find it hard to decipher between the two.
i was a happy drunk tonight. for .0331 minutes. and then i was a sad one. when i realized that i was the 17th wheel at midnight. and at 12.01 i was kissing kerensa and katie. and not you. you are a thousand miles away and nearest to my heart all at the same time. i wish to be loved as much as i love thee at the same time. that has yet to happen. and i wonder if it ever will. sometimes i envy those who have not gone through as much heartache as i have. but at the same time i know that what i've gone through has not killed me but only made me stronger. i keep re-typing my words to make them perfect and legible except i know that my life as a whole will never be perfect so why is it that i'm trying now.
i watched the yellow traffic lights dance upon cait's dashboard and i wonder if division and newport are where i really want to be or if they are really just an innocent memory of what used to be. i find it hard to decipher between the two.
i was a happy drunk tonight. for .0331 minutes. and then i was a sad one. when i realized that i was the 17th wheel at midnight. and at 12.01 i was kissing kerensa and katie. and not you. you are a thousand miles away and nearest to my heart all at the same time. i wish to be loved as much as i love thee at the same time. that has yet to happen. and i wonder if it ever will. sometimes i envy those who have not gone through as much heartache as i have. but at the same time i know that what i've gone through has not killed me but only made me stronger. i keep re-typing my words to make them perfect and legible except i know that my life as a whole will never be perfect so why is it that i'm trying now.