ugh. ack. err. grr. blech. agh. all of the above.
right now, as we speak, i am supposed to be in chicago at six flags, with jason. but no, i'm at home. typing on my computer.
i met jason at seven a.m. today and i could tell when i got in the car that we weren't going. you know why? because he was wearing flip flops. and when you ride the roller coasters, you can't wear flip flops. supposedly it's raining all day in chicago. of course it is. of course the one day that jas and i have off and want to go do something fun, it rains. that just fucking figures.
his mom has been telling him all week, "jas, you guys shouldn't go, it's going to rain." but when it comes to his mom, jason does whatever the opposite she tells him. because he's trying so hard to be independent and break away from the still attached umbilical cord, and be his own person. but she won't let him because she's always up in his coolaid. so in order for him to have control, he has to do what he wants. and in turn, that pisses his mom off. so of course, at six this morning, she's up on the computer egging him to come over and look at the doppler radar, as if to prove to him that it really was going to rain today. OH MY GOD. let the child live his own life. and make his own decisions.
she took me out to dinner on tuesday and then we went to jas's softball game on wednesday night together. it's really sad that i've spent more time with her this week than i have with jason. something is definitely wrong with that picture. i feel like i'm in a relationship with his mother and not with him. something that really bothers me. jas and i have yet to go out on a real date, just me and him. tuesday we went to the movies but somehow his friend dan and my friend kala ended up tagging along. so today was going to be the perfect opportunity. three hours away from the rest of our reality, alone, and doing something we both love. riding the hell out of those roller coasters. but no. whatever it is has once again slapped me in the face and said no, you cannot go today. yeah, great. thanks. even in december when jas and i were dating we never once did anything by ourselves..unless it was hanging out in his room watching movies. spank. spank. so now i'm being paranoid and thinking that if we don't go out on a date soon, this relationship is going to fall apart again. isn't that stupid of me? so...tonight is supposed to be the big night. we're going out on our official first date. that is, if everything doesn't fall apart first.
i met jason at seven a.m. today and i could tell when i got in the car that we weren't going. you know why? because he was wearing flip flops. and when you ride the roller coasters, you can't wear flip flops. supposedly it's raining all day in chicago. of course it is. of course the one day that jas and i have off and want to go do something fun, it rains. that just fucking figures.
his mom has been telling him all week, "jas, you guys shouldn't go, it's going to rain." but when it comes to his mom, jason does whatever the opposite she tells him. because he's trying so hard to be independent and break away from the still attached umbilical cord, and be his own person. but she won't let him because she's always up in his coolaid. so in order for him to have control, he has to do what he wants. and in turn, that pisses his mom off. so of course, at six this morning, she's up on the computer egging him to come over and look at the doppler radar, as if to prove to him that it really was going to rain today. OH MY GOD. let the child live his own life. and make his own decisions.
she took me out to dinner on tuesday and then we went to jas's softball game on wednesday night together. it's really sad that i've spent more time with her this week than i have with jason. something is definitely wrong with that picture. i feel like i'm in a relationship with his mother and not with him. something that really bothers me. jas and i have yet to go out on a real date, just me and him. tuesday we went to the movies but somehow his friend dan and my friend kala ended up tagging along. so today was going to be the perfect opportunity. three hours away from the rest of our reality, alone, and doing something we both love. riding the hell out of those roller coasters. but no. whatever it is has once again slapped me in the face and said no, you cannot go today. yeah, great. thanks. even in december when jas and i were dating we never once did anything by ourselves..unless it was hanging out in his room watching movies. spank. spank. so now i'm being paranoid and thinking that if we don't go out on a date soon, this relationship is going to fall apart again. isn't that stupid of me? so...tonight is supposed to be the big night. we're going out on our official first date. that is, if everything doesn't fall apart first.