2010 in review
The year is almost over and I'm not ready to go to bed yet. Nothing too exciting has happened recently. I finished my semester and did pretty well. I have to remind myself that I work 35 hours a week 95% of the weeks that I work but I'm doing a lot better balance my school work. I know what I can do and in what time I can do it.
Some things I learned this year:
-I learned that staying up all night to cram for a test is a terrible idea. I already knew this, but actually pulled an all nighter and it was terrible.
-I learned who some true friends are and who I can count on to care about me, want to hang out with me, respond to messages/phone calls. I thought maybe some people would surprise me and change, but clearly not. I've turned over a new leaf int he friendship department. Why put in the effort for someone when they clearly can't return it. I've tried multiple times, and its just not worth getting upset over.
-I've learned some limits to my body. I learned what I can drink and how much. How much it takes to get me drunk, and that even though I can and like to drink (sometimes) that I don't always have to drink or drink a lot. I can still casually drink and have fun but not get wasted. I've also learned that going to work drunk is generally a terrible idea, although funny at the time.
-I learned that Mike and I can live together. Thats pretty important. Generally best friends can't live together because they fight too much. We never really fought, only got annoyed with each other. It was usually me because he'd be around too much. Neither one of us have friends from high school really, other than each other. I have Michaela and Lauren, but thats it. So its hard when I want to go out with Unos people or something and he's more than welcome but obviously feels awkward or left out. I tried to include him, but he doesn't always want to go. When he wasn't working it was hard because we just spent way too much time together and would just get bored. I always love spending time with him and was sad when he had to move out, but at that point it was almost better. But he's my best friend and the fact that we survived living together (literally in the same room) for 3 months is crazy. I know I always say this but if someone told me in high school that Mike and I would be this close I'd tell them they were crazy. We've both grown up a lot since we've left high school which is to be expected. But we've both grown a lot closer. We judge a lot less and have both let ourselves have more fun than we used to. We're still both pretty tightly wound, me maybe more than him, but can let go more than we used to be able to. And if you told me that I'd stop being friends with Jess and Tim I'd tell you that you were crazy. The 3 of us were so close in high school. Tim and I were pretty close through 2 years of college, but his damn 12 year old girlfriend (18 actually...) doesn't like me or something. She feels threatened by me, I don't get it. Maybe because I'm in college and I live in the city by myself she doesn't like me. Thinks I'm way crazier than I actually am. Not sure. He texted me the other day, but never followed up on anything. I called him on christmas eve and still didn't get a text or message back. He was the one who texted me, I just don't get it. It still baffles me.
- I've learned that people can change a lot over a summer. All three of my roommates (as well as myself...) changed a lot from last year. All three of them drink a lot more and party a lot more. Involved in different activities and meeting new people. I've done the same ,but not as drastically, I don't think. I've only been really drunk around them once, and that was the beginning of the semester. Not that its a big deal, but its just more stuff to deal with. I'm not sure if we're going to live together next year. Beth and I have been getting along well again, but every now and then she pisses me off, and I'm not sure if I want t live with her again. I know she thinks we're going to, but I'm not sure. No idea what Nicole is thinking. And Kim and I agreed that if she's in Boston, she wants to live together again. Even if its just the two of us. Ideally it would I would live with Mike again, but he needs a job in the city for that to happen. I'm not sure if living with Beth and Mike would be a good idea. The three of us would do some pretty dumb stuff, but that might just be because of the limited time the three of us spend together. If the 3 of us are always together then it might not be as bad.
Things I want to work on/change for 2011:
-I want to stay on top of my school work. I usually do pretty well for about a month and then fail miserably. I know I want to try and stay on top of it for the whole semester. But a more realistic goal is doing it for 2 months. Really stay on top of stuff. Do lab reports a head of time (I'll have 3 a week..) and keep up with any reading.
-Try to stay in on Friday night and do homework while my roommates are gone. Even if I get only 1 or 2 things done, it'll be much more productive than if I go out. I'll allow myself to go out every now and again, but I need to learn to say no. Its become too tempting to just blow of school work and go out with Unos people. I usually end up staying up until 4 am or even later (earlier?) This just makes me more tired for the rest of the weekend because I need to catch up on sleep from the week and then the weekend. It makes for a long week. Especially if I have to work Sunday night. I've become too comfortable with the partying and drinking of Unos. I need to get away from that. That way when I do go it'll be a lot bigger of a treat.
-Stop being so damn sarcastic. Its hilarious but I know I hurt people a lot. Most of the time its fine. But sometimes I realize too late that I'm being a little too mean. I'll never truly lose all that sarcasim, but I need to tone it down a little.
-Budget money a little better. I've been doing pretty good but there have been a couple of weeks that its a little iffy. Its okay for me to say no to going out drinking/buying alcohol/going out to dinner
-I'm going to try and buy food only a week at a time so it doesn't go bad/I don't forget about it. I'll probably spend less money and I'll try to eat at home more. Make sure that I have lunch food and some dinners planned too.
-Hang out with certain people more. Not necessarily drink, but just hang out. Play board games. Watch movies. Just hang out and talk.
-Dominate beruit with Zack. We're going to practice haha.
-Read a lot of new books. I love to read and rarely have the chance other than school breaks. And I always seem to read Harry Potter. Which I obviously love love love, but need to branch out a little.
-Stop procrastinating so damn much. This includes: phone calls I don't want to make, homework!!!!, laundry, cleaning, doing errands, paying bills.
Not sure why I felt like I needed to do that, but it made me feel better. Even if nothing was really bothering me. I think I'm going to read before I pass out for the night.