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I might actually be going insane. I think I might attempt to just accept this one. I have long since admitted to being held captive by both my manic drives and moods but this might be going a bit far. I'm in a difficult situation and I am needing to really watch myself carefully. The dark curtains are in view and at times taunting me but as long as I know where they are I should be good. I think perhaps the finishing up of a project (all my artists finished Friday, sob!) and the changes in my personal life might be skewing my ability to think. Or maybe I'm just truly and honestly missing someone. Why should I be berating myself about this? Isn't it okay to make choices and admit mistakes and dwell in how to move forward? You would think I would be better at this.
I drove to Malibu to hang out with Carly Ann last night because the alternative was a dangerous situation that I am desperately trying to avoid. It was good to see a friend and talk late into the night. I worry about her and about losing yet another friend to another country. It's easy to be lonely when your friends are out of country or workaholics. I think I am just trying to reprogram myself. I told CA last night that you have to be yourself, but be yourself loudly so everyone can hear you. I think I am getting there myself, soon.
I am watching the most obnoxious travel channel feature of what you see when you take a train. This is how people commit themselves, by watching the travel channel. I laid in bed today making sure I was awake in case I got a call from the Sunday record (of course I got three and Chris Mitchell calling to tell me about a thai festival) and picked up a nearby book. When I got a call from Howard I looked down and was on page 130. Oops.
Tuesday we are recording Brian Jones. I am happy that we were able to use him in the two scratch records and that both the director and casting director love him. But moreover I am glad he's in the final record and making some good money for not much effort. It is good to be able to hire friends and also get props for finding someone awesome. Lisa Henson loves him.
I might rent a convertible and take a road trip. I feel a bit like running away, which is a key ability of mine. I am amazing at running when things get tough or difficult to really handle. Driving away seems like an epic idea. Aaron accidentally fell victim to the "you need a misspent youth" argument that Bill was giving me and is determined to take a trip around the world. He and Ellen might go to Baja and I think I would actually go if they do. I was trying to convince Aaron to rent a convertible and go to SF with me. Perhaps I will convince Megan, although god only knows what kind of amazing trouble we would get into on a road trip.
Work is awesome of course. I freely admit that my career is on an epic path and I kick ass at my job. It also helps to be told that all the time. Producing is not far off and I think that I would find it incredibly fun, as long as I was never too far from the artists. I love working with the artists, especially story artists. Scott is planning to keep in touch which is adorable, I will see them all again I do not doubt it. Although I'm seeing most of them on Tuesday for a mini-wrap party and a night of drinking.
I'll think about it some more and see if I need to back track. That would of course be if both parties were interested.
I drove to Malibu to hang out with Carly Ann last night because the alternative was a dangerous situation that I am desperately trying to avoid. It was good to see a friend and talk late into the night. I worry about her and about losing yet another friend to another country. It's easy to be lonely when your friends are out of country or workaholics. I think I am just trying to reprogram myself. I told CA last night that you have to be yourself, but be yourself loudly so everyone can hear you. I think I am getting there myself, soon.
I am watching the most obnoxious travel channel feature of what you see when you take a train. This is how people commit themselves, by watching the travel channel. I laid in bed today making sure I was awake in case I got a call from the Sunday record (of course I got three and Chris Mitchell calling to tell me about a thai festival) and picked up a nearby book. When I got a call from Howard I looked down and was on page 130. Oops.
Tuesday we are recording Brian Jones. I am happy that we were able to use him in the two scratch records and that both the director and casting director love him. But moreover I am glad he's in the final record and making some good money for not much effort. It is good to be able to hire friends and also get props for finding someone awesome. Lisa Henson loves him.
I might rent a convertible and take a road trip. I feel a bit like running away, which is a key ability of mine. I am amazing at running when things get tough or difficult to really handle. Driving away seems like an epic idea. Aaron accidentally fell victim to the "you need a misspent youth" argument that Bill was giving me and is determined to take a trip around the world. He and Ellen might go to Baja and I think I would actually go if they do. I was trying to convince Aaron to rent a convertible and go to SF with me. Perhaps I will convince Megan, although god only knows what kind of amazing trouble we would get into on a road trip.
Work is awesome of course. I freely admit that my career is on an epic path and I kick ass at my job. It also helps to be told that all the time. Producing is not far off and I think that I would find it incredibly fun, as long as I was never too far from the artists. I love working with the artists, especially story artists. Scott is planning to keep in touch which is adorable, I will see them all again I do not doubt it. Although I'm seeing most of them on Tuesday for a mini-wrap party and a night of drinking.
I'll think about it some more and see if I need to back track. That would of course be if both parties were interested.