overwhelmed
boyohboy have i forgotten the pace and pressure associated with having a full-time job and still trying to get all of life's little details taken care of in a somewhat timely manner!
after what felt like a never-ending job search i finally took a job with a very small company (3 engineers / programmers, 3 sales people and me) whose main product is a help desk application. it's contract work, in reality, but the owner has indicated that he can employ me for a long time, he just doesn't want to have employees so everyone works on contract. anyway, it's not my typical gig in that it's at least half office-manager type work, including the accounting. thankfully, the other half of the work is right up my alley as a business systems analyst and i will be either learning entirely new-to-me (IT) business areas or deepening my knowledge in areas i already have some experience.
some of the cool things about the new job, besides the obvious one of a steady income(!), include working from home, buying new computer equipment (some already, some TBD), paying off my debt, having more write-offs on my taxes next year, and not having to live off my IRA any more (and pay the freakin' exorbitant taxes associated with that).
but the biggest not-so-cool item is how much time i no longer have to do things i enjoy and need in my life! where can i buy some energy?! the first two weeks were hell, we ate out or got take out pretty much every day because i was too tired to cook; i'm not spending nearly as much time as i need to up at the garden so the to-do list is growing faster than the veggies; several personal to-dos for my girls and me have been pushed out (my decision, not theirs, lol) to late this week or next week and i'm dealing with the associated grumpy fallout; and on and on and on. and don't even ask whether i've been getting exercise of any kind.
i know i'll eventually get used to it...the end of last week was much better...but i'm all screwed up right now and that's never a good thing. i feel pressure to make it all work before i crash.
overall i'm enjoying it, although the office-type work gets tedious.
and, let's fact it, it's a much better kind of stress than joblessness stress, and i'm relieved and thankful to have it.
after what felt like a never-ending job search i finally took a job with a very small company (3 engineers / programmers, 3 sales people and me) whose main product is a help desk application. it's contract work, in reality, but the owner has indicated that he can employ me for a long time, he just doesn't want to have employees so everyone works on contract. anyway, it's not my typical gig in that it's at least half office-manager type work, including the accounting. thankfully, the other half of the work is right up my alley as a business systems analyst and i will be either learning entirely new-to-me (IT) business areas or deepening my knowledge in areas i already have some experience.
some of the cool things about the new job, besides the obvious one of a steady income(!), include working from home, buying new computer equipment (some already, some TBD), paying off my debt, having more write-offs on my taxes next year, and not having to live off my IRA any more (and pay the freakin' exorbitant taxes associated with that).
but the biggest not-so-cool item is how much time i no longer have to do things i enjoy and need in my life! where can i buy some energy?! the first two weeks were hell, we ate out or got take out pretty much every day because i was too tired to cook; i'm not spending nearly as much time as i need to up at the garden so the to-do list is growing faster than the veggies; several personal to-dos for my girls and me have been pushed out (my decision, not theirs, lol) to late this week or next week and i'm dealing with the associated grumpy fallout; and on and on and on. and don't even ask whether i've been getting exercise of any kind.
i know i'll eventually get used to it...the end of last week was much better...but i'm all screwed up right now and that's never a good thing. i feel pressure to make it all work before i crash.
overall i'm enjoying it, although the office-type work gets tedious.
and, let's fact it, it's a much better kind of stress than joblessness stress, and i'm relieved and thankful to have it.