When the small S feels like the big S

[rednest]

My firstborn blows her nose a lot. Now I know this is a victory of a kind. Kids need to blow their noses, need to really *learn* about it and do it themselves. So the empowerment is cool. But this constant F'ing blowing. It's driving me F'ing nuts. Not a lot of snot comes out either and so it's just kind of this obsessive thing. The bit about it that is all so so is that it's my problem for noticing. Once you notice something it takes a spiritual manuever to make you un notice it. Start prayin'

Just because I can't seem to go any deeper - it's 10 pm and all of my kids are still awake. Ahhh, the present moment. Bang a gong.