I’ve been working on some of the depression issues mentioned a few posts back, making progress. Been making a concerted effort to have fun. Lots of weekend trips to Athens, socializing, concerts, that sort of thing.  Starting to create things again too! I’ve made a mixtape for the first time….like a proper mixtape. Did it in Audacity. Didn’t try to ( Read more... )

I need another dose of Milosz. Perhaps you do too. Here we go…

Guardian Angel

In my dreams my guardian angel takes the form of a woman,

Not always the same one. He knows that I, a fleshly creature,

Need a lover’s touch. We don’t make love,

But there is a closeness between us, and understanding.

I never believed in the presence of angels, but my ( Read more... )

Should start hacking more. Or posting about hacks? Haven’t been writing anything terribly interesting lately though. Lots of config updates, work stuff, odds and ends. Little of substance. So in lieu of that, some soul nourishing poetry. Been reading more Milosz lately; Second Space, in particular. There are several really lovely pieces, here’s one ( Read more... )

Today is my 25th birthday. So far I’ve mostly done chores: grocery shopping, laundry, handing over the keys to my old apartment, odds and ends. And, by design, I don’t have any social plans for this afternoon or evening. I’m usually pretty pensive and melancholy around my birthday. This year continues the trend. Generally, when my birthday is ( Read more... )

“Where does humility come from? From sitting down and putting little signs on paper with the hope of expressing something. I am able to spend whole days on the occupation, but as soon as I finish I see that I did not express anything. I would like to consider myself a genius; I do not manage it. To tell the truth, I don’t know where the geniuses ( Read more... )

It’s been a big weekend. I’m pretty exhausted and not entirely ready for the week to come but I’ll have to get a good night’s sleep and let that suffice as preparation. I’m still working on the weblocks/lisp stuff. Should have a blog article up by this Friday with any luck and there are plans for more in the series.

I enjoyed a friend’s wedding in ( Read more... )

You know what today was missing? Some Milosz ( Read more... )

Things have been fairly ridiculous for the last 10 days. I won't go into details because they concern some other people that might not want them discussed. That said, things have been fairly ridiculous and I've had a hard time focusing on doing schoolwork or anything else. I'm trying not to get overwhelmed by everything. I feel like I can't keep up ( Read more... )

Originally published at Improved Means for Achieving Deteriorated Ends. You can comment here or there.

There was a fragment of Milosz stuck in my head the last 24 hours that I wanted to track down and get out of my system. It was originally printed as an Inscript in Unattainable Earth but I found it reprinted in his New and Collected Poems on pgs. ( Read more... )

Originally published at Improved Means for Achieving Deteriorated Ends. You can comment here or there.

This is a Czeslaw Milosz poem that should have found it’s way here a long time ago. It’s called Preparation.

Still one more year of preparation.
Tomorrow at the latest I’ll start working on a great book
In which my century will appear as it really ( Read more... )