Infatuation - Chapter 6 [ShouxGackt]
“Gackt…” I whispered as I traced his brow as he sleeps.
“Gackt…” I whispered again trying to softly wake him up, this time I drew an invisible line from his brow down to his nose.
His features are God like. He looks like a heroic Greek statue incarnated into a human being. He was gorgeous, more than gorgeous. I just can’t explain. It’s beyond words. And what happened last night was just like a dream. I could barely believe what had happened.
Usually, my unrequited loves never turn out like this. Never did they ever notice me, never did they encourage or acknowledge my feelings for them no matter how deep and true it was. I was always left heart broken with tears in my eyes. For me the pain in my chest felt almost normal after so many attempts of finding true love. Actually, it felt more than normal I was beginning to like it, no matter how sadistic it sounded it was true. But I still couldn’t help feeling empty and alone like I didn’t have a best friend or lover out there to hear my silent cries and hold me as I vent out on how I felt and how I thought the world was unfair to me.
But the only outlet I had was my voice, my natural born instrument.
It was the only way I could speak and actually be heard by many. I liked the feeling of being heard.
At least once I would like to be the one to talk and be heard. All these years I’ve only just been the listener the one who would take care of those around him. The one who would give the advice and be the shoulder they cried on. Would I be asking so much if I asked the world, if I asked God that I wanted a listener, a shoulder, and a lover to lean on when I had no one else in the world to go to? Would I be selfish? Or would it be greed?
I always thought I was asking too much every year I blew out those candles on top of plain birthday cake everyone thought I liked. Am I really asking so much? Maybe I am.
But last night felt like all my wishes were granted after all these years of being alone. No one ever held me, not like how Gackt held me. It was new and very welcome. No one ever whispered soft words into my ear telling me everything was going to be okay that tomorrow is a new day and a new start of something great.
But I couldn’t help feeling like this; all this will be taken away from me once I wake up from this dream. All the warmth and security I was finally feeling. I’m afraid I’ll lose it all. I don’t know if my heart would take another blow not like this. Not when I think all my wishes were granted and that I’m finally happy.
But I’ll take the risk, I won’t expect much but I will take the risk and find happiness in him, my savior and my wish.
“Gackt… wake up” I repeated softly as I slowly leaned in to kiss his nose. He wrinkled his nose and slowly opened his eyes.
“Hey… you’re up” He said in a very sexy husky voice.
“Yea… thanks for last night” I said caressing his cheek slightly. He only smiled when suddenly he grabbed me and positioned me in his arms as he nuzzled against the crook of my neck.
“Why are we awake?” He asked his voice sounded somewhat muffled.
“Because we both have work till 1pm today” I answered tangling my fingers with his hair, which felt soft like silk, but all over the place like a cute little kid with bed hair.
“Come on, we gotta get up, can I use your shower? I don’t like going one day without one” I asked him still playing with his hair.
“Yea, the bathroom is that one over there, you go ahead and shower,” He pointed at the door that was right next to the dresser, he didn’t even bother looking up from the nook of my neck.
“Can I get up after you shower? Please?” He begged cutely.
“Sure” “Okay!” He answered as he nuzzled into my neck even more.
“Umm… you’re going to have to let me go if you want me to wake you after I shower, you know” I told him poking the side of his stomach playfully.
“So demanding!” he said faking a shouting, angry voice before he let me go and moved to a pillow and right before I could get up he pulled me down to kiss me in the most romantic way ever. His hand rested on the side of my face as he continued kissing me. He broke free and said “Good Morning” before he laid back down again and acted like he was sleeping.
I was completely blown away from that kiss. It was just intense and romantic at the same time. This God is just unpredictable. My brain stopped working for a moment. That was just… phew.
When I got my brain cells to work again I continued on to take a quick shower. I didn’t want to finish all the hot water. After all this isn’t my apartment. Only when I got out of the shower I noticed how pretty the bathroom was decorated it was just like a typical bachelors pad but clean and very cozy. Crap, I don’t have any extra clothes. I guess I’ll have to borrow some, so embarrassing. I dried off as much as I can, leaving only a few droplets of water and wrapped a towel around my waist and made my way out of the bathroom and into the bedroom.
“Umm… Gackt…” I started shyly, He only hmmed in response.
“Can I borrow some of your clothes? I’ll have them cleaned and returned to you tomorrow” I asked shyly, at my question he looked up instantly, Oh crap. I felt my cheeks go red. Stop staring. Stop staring.
“Gackt” I said breaking the look he was giving me. He looked like he was going to eat me. Not that I minded but still.
“Sorry… yea… clothes” He said rather distracted. I’m not that nice to look at. Whys he getting distracted for.
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“Umm… Gackt” Shou said waking me into my half-sleep state. He sounded shy. Why would he sound shy?
“Can I borrow some of your clothes? I’ll have them cleaned and returned to you tomorrow” He continued, my clothes? Oh shit. I forgot he didn’t have any extras on him. Great hospitality Gackt. He’s got no clothes to wear now get up and go get him some. Wait. No clothes? I looked up instantly when I realized the fact and there he was wrapped only in a towel.
His body shined in the little sunlight that tried to break free from the cracked curtains. His arms were shaped well and his stomach completely flat. He looks so delicious especially with the wet hair sticking onto his forehead and his lips glistening wet looking swollen and red.
“Gackt” He called out breaking me from my stare. Shit. I was staring.
“Sorry… yea… clothes” I said trying to distract myself so I won’t keep glancing at how barely that towel is covering his… never mind. I got out of bed and walked over to my closet and gave him my black v-neck shirt and slacks that I hope will fit him.
“There you go, I hope they fit,” I told him.
“Thanks” He said retreating to the bathroom.
Right, okay, now to take a shower as well a cold one, a VERY cold shower. I got my clothes ready. I pulled out a white tank with a white button up shirt and blue jeans from the closet.
I heard the bathroom door open and close and I looked up to see how Shou looked in my clothes. The shirt looked a little bit bigger on him than it did on me but it still made him look sexy as the v-neck exposed his collarbones. The pants were too long for him but it fit his waist perfectly, it looked cute.
“How do I look?” He asked as he dried his hair with the tiny towel that was around his waist.
“Good enough to eat” Okay. I did not just say that, but hey it was true. He did look good enough to eat. I gave him smile before pecking him on the cheek and proceeding to the bathroom to take that cold shower.
“Gackt…” I whispered again trying to softly wake him up, this time I drew an invisible line from his brow down to his nose.
His features are God like. He looks like a heroic Greek statue incarnated into a human being. He was gorgeous, more than gorgeous. I just can’t explain. It’s beyond words. And what happened last night was just like a dream. I could barely believe what had happened.
Usually, my unrequited loves never turn out like this. Never did they ever notice me, never did they encourage or acknowledge my feelings for them no matter how deep and true it was. I was always left heart broken with tears in my eyes. For me the pain in my chest felt almost normal after so many attempts of finding true love. Actually, it felt more than normal I was beginning to like it, no matter how sadistic it sounded it was true. But I still couldn’t help feeling empty and alone like I didn’t have a best friend or lover out there to hear my silent cries and hold me as I vent out on how I felt and how I thought the world was unfair to me.
But the only outlet I had was my voice, my natural born instrument.
It was the only way I could speak and actually be heard by many. I liked the feeling of being heard.
At least once I would like to be the one to talk and be heard. All these years I’ve only just been the listener the one who would take care of those around him. The one who would give the advice and be the shoulder they cried on. Would I be asking so much if I asked the world, if I asked God that I wanted a listener, a shoulder, and a lover to lean on when I had no one else in the world to go to? Would I be selfish? Or would it be greed?
I always thought I was asking too much every year I blew out those candles on top of plain birthday cake everyone thought I liked. Am I really asking so much? Maybe I am.
But last night felt like all my wishes were granted after all these years of being alone. No one ever held me, not like how Gackt held me. It was new and very welcome. No one ever whispered soft words into my ear telling me everything was going to be okay that tomorrow is a new day and a new start of something great.
But I couldn’t help feeling like this; all this will be taken away from me once I wake up from this dream. All the warmth and security I was finally feeling. I’m afraid I’ll lose it all. I don’t know if my heart would take another blow not like this. Not when I think all my wishes were granted and that I’m finally happy.
But I’ll take the risk, I won’t expect much but I will take the risk and find happiness in him, my savior and my wish.
“Gackt… wake up” I repeated softly as I slowly leaned in to kiss his nose. He wrinkled his nose and slowly opened his eyes.
“Hey… you’re up” He said in a very sexy husky voice.
“Yea… thanks for last night” I said caressing his cheek slightly. He only smiled when suddenly he grabbed me and positioned me in his arms as he nuzzled against the crook of my neck.
“Why are we awake?” He asked his voice sounded somewhat muffled.
“Because we both have work till 1pm today” I answered tangling my fingers with his hair, which felt soft like silk, but all over the place like a cute little kid with bed hair.
“Come on, we gotta get up, can I use your shower? I don’t like going one day without one” I asked him still playing with his hair.
“Yea, the bathroom is that one over there, you go ahead and shower,” He pointed at the door that was right next to the dresser, he didn’t even bother looking up from the nook of my neck.
“Can I get up after you shower? Please?” He begged cutely.
“Sure” “Okay!” He answered as he nuzzled into my neck even more.
“Umm… you’re going to have to let me go if you want me to wake you after I shower, you know” I told him poking the side of his stomach playfully.
“So demanding!” he said faking a shouting, angry voice before he let me go and moved to a pillow and right before I could get up he pulled me down to kiss me in the most romantic way ever. His hand rested on the side of my face as he continued kissing me. He broke free and said “Good Morning” before he laid back down again and acted like he was sleeping.
I was completely blown away from that kiss. It was just intense and romantic at the same time. This God is just unpredictable. My brain stopped working for a moment. That was just… phew.
When I got my brain cells to work again I continued on to take a quick shower. I didn’t want to finish all the hot water. After all this isn’t my apartment. Only when I got out of the shower I noticed how pretty the bathroom was decorated it was just like a typical bachelors pad but clean and very cozy. Crap, I don’t have any extra clothes. I guess I’ll have to borrow some, so embarrassing. I dried off as much as I can, leaving only a few droplets of water and wrapped a towel around my waist and made my way out of the bathroom and into the bedroom.
“Umm… Gackt…” I started shyly, He only hmmed in response.
“Can I borrow some of your clothes? I’ll have them cleaned and returned to you tomorrow” I asked shyly, at my question he looked up instantly, Oh crap. I felt my cheeks go red. Stop staring. Stop staring.
“Gackt” I said breaking the look he was giving me. He looked like he was going to eat me. Not that I minded but still.
“Sorry… yea… clothes” He said rather distracted. I’m not that nice to look at. Whys he getting distracted for.
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“Umm… Gackt” Shou said waking me into my half-sleep state. He sounded shy. Why would he sound shy?
“Can I borrow some of your clothes? I’ll have them cleaned and returned to you tomorrow” He continued, my clothes? Oh shit. I forgot he didn’t have any extras on him. Great hospitality Gackt. He’s got no clothes to wear now get up and go get him some. Wait. No clothes? I looked up instantly when I realized the fact and there he was wrapped only in a towel.
His body shined in the little sunlight that tried to break free from the cracked curtains. His arms were shaped well and his stomach completely flat. He looks so delicious especially with the wet hair sticking onto his forehead and his lips glistening wet looking swollen and red.
“Gackt” He called out breaking me from my stare. Shit. I was staring.
“Sorry… yea… clothes” I said trying to distract myself so I won’t keep glancing at how barely that towel is covering his… never mind. I got out of bed and walked over to my closet and gave him my black v-neck shirt and slacks that I hope will fit him.
“There you go, I hope they fit,” I told him.
“Thanks” He said retreating to the bathroom.
Right, okay, now to take a shower as well a cold one, a VERY cold shower. I got my clothes ready. I pulled out a white tank with a white button up shirt and blue jeans from the closet.
I heard the bathroom door open and close and I looked up to see how Shou looked in my clothes. The shirt looked a little bit bigger on him than it did on me but it still made him look sexy as the v-neck exposed his collarbones. The pants were too long for him but it fit his waist perfectly, it looked cute.
“How do I look?” He asked as he dried his hair with the tiny towel that was around his waist.
“Good enough to eat” Okay. I did not just say that, but hey it was true. He did look good enough to eat. I gave him smile before pecking him on the cheek and proceeding to the bathroom to take that cold shower.