someday I'll remember how to sleep
Someone outside my building is blasting "She's Like the Wind" (yes, from Dirty Dancing) from their boombox or car. WHAT IS THIS MADNESS.
Interesting things:
1. Went to see a Cuban fusion rapper perform- I was originally supposed to go with a friend, but they flaked on me, so I ended up inviting my mom, which ended up being pretty awesome- we got to bond, and she was able to translate the parts I couldn't catch and explain the photographic exhibit that was housed there too.
I really like going to cultural things with my mom, even though she still seems a little confused when I show any interest in culture at all, probably because when I was little I was incredibly vested in being 100% American and shunned Hispanic things. (I also really wanted blond hair and blue eyes. o_O We lived in an immigrant neighborhood with the other immigrants, so I'm not sure where I got those ideas from. TO be fair, my parents wanted to be good Americans too, just not with my level of zeal.) I am much more interested now, (even if I sometimes feel like a sham) though my mom will still do things like see academic texts on santeria on my bookshelf and warn me on, like, staying away from the dark arts. ANYWAY. The sound quality wasn't great, but the music was and we had a lovely time. I haven't been to BAM in a while, I like the space. Also, I got to dance. And run into a random friend from high school.
2. I've been back for a week and am still not caught up on LJ. Big surprise.
3. My boss randomly gave me an unsolicited raise. Apparently I am a great worker, or something.
4. I finished my kinda-sorta, way too long, Doctor Who only (for now) fic rec list! There is absolutely no reason for me to have one, but it makes me happy anyway. Now my vid rec list will not be alone.
5. things I did on vacation:
-had my flight delayed by 6 hours, 5 1/2 of which were spent in the plane, on the runway, culminating in Connor picking me up from the airport at 4:30 in the morning b/c he's a rockstar
-camping (complete with food cooked on a stick and stupid drinking games. And a double rainbow!)
-wine tasting in various regions with grad students majoring in wine production (informative!)
-met and approved of Connor's really nice gf, who he is apparently very serious about
-went to San Francisco for the first time, explored many neighborhoods (there are lots of hills! And rainbow flags!)
-went dancing at San Francisco's oldest goth night
-made homemade pie, pizza, frites, and mayonnaise (fresh cherries = bliss)
-helped Connor with his PhD fieldwork (sampling 26 stream sites!)
- practiced bike riding, which I don't really know how to do (didn't skid into traffic!)
-saw the new Pirates movie (while passing a flask of rum back and forth!)
-visited San Francisco's only worker owned, unionized peepshow (really cool, and the lady servicing our booth was really hot, however...Connor and I are close, but not *that* close. So it was awkward. For some reason I expected the dancers to be less...sexual and naked. Why, I have no idea.)
-went sailing in the San Francisco Bay! (This was super awesome. I know nothing about sailing, but apparently I did okay. Connor could have been lying to spare my feelings. We did fall out of the boat twice, though it was really windy.)
6. Completely random fic rec:
Title: Bless; A Mad Love Story
Author: commodoresexual
Pairing/Characters: Lucy Cole/Harold Saxon, Doctor, Jack, & Martha cameos, implied Doctor/Master, one story is Doctor/Lucy/Master
Timeline: Season 3 AU
Rating: Adult,for what you'd pretty much expect from the Saxons: murder, sociopathic behavior, rough sex(nonexplicit/softcore), sex/violence kink, instances of probable domestic abuse in both directions. I didn't read the Master/Doctor/Lucy story, so I can't comment on that one.
Notes: Series of short-ish fics. Link goes to story tag.
Yeah, I am reccing something with absolutely no Rose! One of the things I disliked about the Master's Arc was Lucy embodying the "broken doll" trope. I know that it worked well for the storyline, and to show that the Master was a Bad Man, but it still makes me sad. I mean, Joss did the same thing with Drusilla but I feel like she was more well rounded and had more agency and was a badass as well as a victim. And I had high hopes for Lucy being crazy AND evil from the conversation she had with Vivien Rook. This series re-imagines the Lucy from the show as crazy (sociopathic), clever, wicked and politically savvy; a good match for good Mr. Saxon. And despite what the the long list of warnings makes it look like, this is actually pretty fluffy, in that "two insane, evil people in love" dark comedy sort of way. It occasionally veers towards wish fulfillment in how awesome Lucy is (I can't *quite* reconcile it with canon) and the author is a bit more fond of songfic than I am, but I give it a pass for Lucy being such a creepy badass.
7. I am having unhappy times with my psych medication, and I don't know why...:P
I'm not always on psych medication, but I've been on this particular medication before in the past without a problem, and I've been taking it now for a while. And it's a low dosage of a medication without a lot of side effects (bupropion). Also, I've had side effects from pysch drugs before, but not like this.
Basically, the medication is making me sick for the duration of the time it takes to dissolve- sort of like being drunk but much less pleasant. I *think* it might have something to do with forgetting to take it regularly, and that maybe it's rebounding or something when I do take it- when I had a massive panic attack 2 months ago it was after I had forgotten to take it regularly for about a week or two (took it maybe half the time) then started taking it every day again. This time, It started after I was on vacation for 9 days and according to the bottle I only took it 5 times. It also seems to be related to taking it later in the day? IDEK. It made me sick one day, so I skipped the next, and it made me sick again on that third day. Which was quite enough for me, thanks.
It starts about an hour after I take it, and last for 6-8 hours. I'm nauseous, my head hurts a lot, and I feel panicky and jittery like a sub-panic attack. Also, being that I have, um, a little, tiny bit of a hypochondria problem which I'm mostly able to keep in check *unless* I'm having anxiety issues, I spend most of those 6-8 hours convinced that I'm on the verge of death and/or my head is going to explode. WTF is going on? I mean I've had a similar "high" effect with steroids (YUCK.) and to a much lesser extent with my short time on amphetamine salts, but never with just a normal antidepressant. And I'm not really prone to anxiety type problems, which is the weird thing.
I was able to talk to my doctor a few days ago, and I'm taking cut up pieces of it until I see her, which staves off the headaches I would get from stopping, but I still feel a bit discombobulated.
I guess I just have to wait for what the doctor tells me. It's just weird that it would suddenly change. Also, annoying. The pharmacy has switched to another brand of the generic in the last few months, which may be something despite all logic, but other than than that, I'm baffled. And irritable.
TL;DR, I hope my medication problems get sorted out soon because it's making me perpetually cranky and ill-tempered I keep on wanting to pick fights on fanficrants because everyone is so CLEARLY WRONG.
Interesting things:
1. Went to see a Cuban fusion rapper perform- I was originally supposed to go with a friend, but they flaked on me, so I ended up inviting my mom, which ended up being pretty awesome- we got to bond, and she was able to translate the parts I couldn't catch and explain the photographic exhibit that was housed there too.
I really like going to cultural things with my mom, even though she still seems a little confused when I show any interest in culture at all, probably because when I was little I was incredibly vested in being 100% American and shunned Hispanic things. (I also really wanted blond hair and blue eyes. o_O We lived in an immigrant neighborhood with the other immigrants, so I'm not sure where I got those ideas from. TO be fair, my parents wanted to be good Americans too, just not with my level of zeal.) I am much more interested now, (even if I sometimes feel like a sham) though my mom will still do things like see academic texts on santeria on my bookshelf and warn me on, like, staying away from the dark arts. ANYWAY. The sound quality wasn't great, but the music was and we had a lovely time. I haven't been to BAM in a while, I like the space. Also, I got to dance. And run into a random friend from high school.
2. I've been back for a week and am still not caught up on LJ. Big surprise.
3. My boss randomly gave me an unsolicited raise. Apparently I am a great worker, or something.
4. I finished my kinda-sorta, way too long, Doctor Who only (for now) fic rec list! There is absolutely no reason for me to have one, but it makes me happy anyway. Now my vid rec list will not be alone.
5. things I did on vacation:
-had my flight delayed by 6 hours, 5 1/2 of which were spent in the plane, on the runway, culminating in Connor picking me up from the airport at 4:30 in the morning b/c he's a rockstar
-camping (complete with food cooked on a stick and stupid drinking games. And a double rainbow!)
-wine tasting in various regions with grad students majoring in wine production (informative!)
-met and approved of Connor's really nice gf, who he is apparently very serious about
-went to San Francisco for the first time, explored many neighborhoods (there are lots of hills! And rainbow flags!)
-went dancing at San Francisco's oldest goth night
-made homemade pie, pizza, frites, and mayonnaise (fresh cherries = bliss)
-helped Connor with his PhD fieldwork (sampling 26 stream sites!)
- practiced bike riding, which I don't really know how to do (didn't skid into traffic!)
-saw the new Pirates movie (while passing a flask of rum back and forth!)
-visited San Francisco's only worker owned, unionized peepshow (really cool, and the lady servicing our booth was really hot, however...Connor and I are close, but not *that* close. So it was awkward. For some reason I expected the dancers to be less...sexual and naked. Why, I have no idea.)
-went sailing in the San Francisco Bay! (This was super awesome. I know nothing about sailing, but apparently I did okay. Connor could have been lying to spare my feelings. We did fall out of the boat twice, though it was really windy.)
6. Completely random fic rec:
Title: Bless; A Mad Love Story
Author: commodoresexual
Pairing/Characters: Lucy Cole/Harold Saxon, Doctor, Jack, & Martha cameos, implied Doctor/Master, one story is Doctor/Lucy/Master
Timeline: Season 3 AU
Rating: Adult,for what you'd pretty much expect from the Saxons: murder, sociopathic behavior, rough sex(nonexplicit/softcore), sex/violence kink, instances of probable domestic abuse in both directions. I didn't read the Master/Doctor/Lucy story, so I can't comment on that one.
Notes: Series of short-ish fics. Link goes to story tag.
Yeah, I am reccing something with absolutely no Rose! One of the things I disliked about the Master's Arc was Lucy embodying the "broken doll" trope. I know that it worked well for the storyline, and to show that the Master was a Bad Man, but it still makes me sad. I mean, Joss did the same thing with Drusilla but I feel like she was more well rounded and had more agency and was a badass as well as a victim. And I had high hopes for Lucy being crazy AND evil from the conversation she had with Vivien Rook. This series re-imagines the Lucy from the show as crazy (sociopathic), clever, wicked and politically savvy; a good match for good Mr. Saxon. And despite what the the long list of warnings makes it look like, this is actually pretty fluffy, in that "two insane, evil people in love" dark comedy sort of way. It occasionally veers towards wish fulfillment in how awesome Lucy is (I can't *quite* reconcile it with canon) and the author is a bit more fond of songfic than I am, but I give it a pass for Lucy being such a creepy badass.
7. I am having unhappy times with my psych medication, and I don't know why...:P
I'm not always on psych medication, but I've been on this particular medication before in the past without a problem, and I've been taking it now for a while. And it's a low dosage of a medication without a lot of side effects (bupropion). Also, I've had side effects from pysch drugs before, but not like this.
Basically, the medication is making me sick for the duration of the time it takes to dissolve- sort of like being drunk but much less pleasant. I *think* it might have something to do with forgetting to take it regularly, and that maybe it's rebounding or something when I do take it- when I had a massive panic attack 2 months ago it was after I had forgotten to take it regularly for about a week or two (took it maybe half the time) then started taking it every day again. This time, It started after I was on vacation for 9 days and according to the bottle I only took it 5 times. It also seems to be related to taking it later in the day? IDEK. It made me sick one day, so I skipped the next, and it made me sick again on that third day. Which was quite enough for me, thanks.
It starts about an hour after I take it, and last for 6-8 hours. I'm nauseous, my head hurts a lot, and I feel panicky and jittery like a sub-panic attack. Also, being that I have, um, a little, tiny bit of a hypochondria problem which I'm mostly able to keep in check *unless* I'm having anxiety issues, I spend most of those 6-8 hours convinced that I'm on the verge of death and/or my head is going to explode. WTF is going on? I mean I've had a similar "high" effect with steroids (YUCK.) and to a much lesser extent with my short time on amphetamine salts, but never with just a normal antidepressant. And I'm not really prone to anxiety type problems, which is the weird thing.
I was able to talk to my doctor a few days ago, and I'm taking cut up pieces of it until I see her, which staves off the headaches I would get from stopping, but I still feel a bit discombobulated.
I guess I just have to wait for what the doctor tells me. It's just weird that it would suddenly change. Also, annoying. The pharmacy has switched to another brand of the generic in the last few months, which may be something despite all logic, but other than than that, I'm baffled. And irritable.
TL;DR, I hope my medication problems get sorted out soon because it's making me perpetually cranky and ill-tempered I keep on wanting to pick fights on fanficrants because everyone is so CLEARLY WRONG.