how many entries can I have with the title 'arrrgh'?
I know little things aren't supposed to upset me. I know I'm supposed to take this as one small setback and not feel like this is overwhelming proof that I'm unfit to inhabit the earth. But really, fuck all that.
I also should really call violet. I was hoping that before I force myself to do that I would
a.)have my license b.)have things figured out with logan, or c.)figured out what violet and I need to talk about. I somehow doubt any of those 3 things are going to happen. Of course, I could just never speak to violet again, which now is looking like an attractive option. I know that everyone thinks that's an awful thing to do, especially v, but although I may feel strangely empty, that's almost normal for me at this point and the less I think of v the less I get brought down. you don't bring me anything but down. Oh, I should get smacked for saying that. Of course, my strange apathy might be because I'm switching my confused, bitchy feelings over to logan. Or it might be another part of my big trip into
!superapathy! Who knows. I feel almost like shouting the whole i don't want knowledge, I want certainty bit. I just want to not have to think for a while and have that not be a bad thing.
This logan thing was a bad idea, I'm sure. Arrrgh. Again, and again.
Feeling supersonic/give me gin & tonic/you can have it all/but how much do you want it?
I also should really call violet. I was hoping that before I force myself to do that I would
a.)have my license b.)have things figured out with logan, or c.)figured out what violet and I need to talk about. I somehow doubt any of those 3 things are going to happen. Of course, I could just never speak to violet again, which now is looking like an attractive option. I know that everyone thinks that's an awful thing to do, especially v, but although I may feel strangely empty, that's almost normal for me at this point and the less I think of v the less I get brought down. you don't bring me anything but down. Oh, I should get smacked for saying that. Of course, my strange apathy might be because I'm switching my confused, bitchy feelings over to logan. Or it might be another part of my big trip into
!superapathy! Who knows. I feel almost like shouting the whole i don't want knowledge, I want certainty bit. I just want to not have to think for a while and have that not be a bad thing.
This logan thing was a bad idea, I'm sure. Arrrgh. Again, and again.
Feeling supersonic/give me gin & tonic/you can have it all/but how much do you want it?