Many thoughts
I have been working through a medication change which is playing havoc with my thoughts and feelings.
I worry a lot about work and if I can make a living selling on commission. My job is pretty good but the constant fear of whether or not someone will come in and buy a car is wearing to my psyche.
I worry about those around me. I wish for their ( Read more... )
The thing about commission sales is that it's boom and bust; there will be many times of nothing to go with the times of plenty. You have three partners to help buffer the income stream and smooth things out. They're not gonna let you starve.
Objective evidence weighs pretty heavily against the hypothesis that you're unloveable. Unloveable people tend not to have any partners. You've got THREE. ;D
Wouldn't it be nice if you could just take a big ol' stick and beat on the little demon at the back of your brain that says nasty things until it shut its lying gob for good? I wish I could do that for Jerry.
Remember this: your guys do love you, and they wish for your happiness, too. It's not just about you; when you're feeling crappy inside, it's also a service to them to ask for the affection you need.
None of us are in control of our destinies. We're only in control of our actions. All you can do is do your best, and acknowledge that the rest of it is out of your hands. Which is scary, but ultimately liberating.
*BIG HUG!*
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