Like a nightmare. I couldn't control myself. If Simon and the others hadn't stopped me... I would've killed everything that stood in my way, friend or foe. It's a terrible feeling, Asuka, caught in a landslide and being powerless to stop it.
That's Getter Rays, when they get too much. Only...you don't want to stop it, either. You just want to crush whatever's in front of you before your mind explodes from the sheer power...
Or at least, I hope that wasn't just me.
And then, something changed. Nagare, somehow, cut back the power to the point where my head wasn't going to split open any more. And I felt...I...I couldn't understand what I felt. It was a kind of...one-ness. As if my Eva was being affected in the exact same way I was.
DAMMIT! Dammit, dammit, dammit. If the electronics had been working properly, I'm sure they'd have recorded a perfect synchronization rate. I'd have set an all-time, unassailable record.
Uncomfortable subconscious prodding is goa_young_legendSeptember 21 2009, 05:10:38 UTC
Asuka... is being as powerful as you can be all you really care about? Stuff like that sounds dangerous. I don't understand what the hell you're trying to prove to everybody, anyway. If you can kick an Angel's ass thoroughly - which you've proven time and time again - why push yourself so hard? You're just going to wind up crashing and burning. Just relax.
After we beat our opponents...something else showed up. I'm not lying or being boastful when I say nothing really, truly scares me, but this did, right back in the reptile part of the brain. Not just because it was huge, and it was, but because I knew if I got too much of this power, I'd just...I'd...
And then Nagare went off and fought it anyway, just to see if he could. Dude was nuts.
I've got my reasons, and plenty of them, for wanting to prove to everyone and myself that I'm the best and the strongest. But after this...I understand there's a limit to what I'm willing to do. It's a lot higher than you seem to be suggesting, but now I now it's there.
I... no, you're right. You're strong. Way stronger than I could ever hope to be. And I want... you should want to continue to push those limits, to be as much as you can be. I'm being selfish. Really, I am.
B-but... you have to understand something... ulp...
2/2, confessana_young_legendSeptember 21 2009, 17:21:27 UTC
[power of RABU RABU filter to Asuka]
I... I care about you... a lot, okay? Please don't make me say it. You understand, right? So please, please don't make me say it.
If something were to happen to you, I'd never forgive myself. If you were to die, Asuka, I would die, too. This probably sounds pathetic and stupid and a lot of other things, but it doesn't matter. I'm just so worried. And I shouldn't be, because if anyone can take care of themselves, it's you.
What I'm trying to say, Asuka, is that I can't afford to lose you. More than anything in the world, I... I want you to stay next to me, and laugh at me, and call me names, because--
J-just because, okay? There, you can blow me off now, but now at least you know why I'm acting like such an idiot. I can't help it. I don't want you getting in over your head. That's all.
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I'm kidding, but that was a beyond-weird experience.
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Or at least, I hope that wasn't just me.
And then, something changed. Nagare, somehow, cut back the power to the point where my head wasn't going to split open any more. And I felt...I...I couldn't understand what I felt. It was a kind of...one-ness. As if my Eva was being affected in the exact same way I was.
DAMMIT! Dammit, dammit, dammit. If the electronics had been working properly, I'm sure they'd have recorded a perfect synchronization rate. I'd have set an all-time, unassailable record.
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After we beat our opponents...something else showed up. I'm not lying or being boastful when I say nothing really, truly scares me, but this did, right back in the reptile part of the brain. Not just because it was huge, and it was, but because I knew if I got too much of this power, I'd just...I'd...
And then Nagare went off and fought it anyway, just to see if he could. Dude was nuts.
I've got my reasons, and plenty of them, for wanting to prove to everyone and myself that I'm the best and the strongest. But after this...I understand there's a limit to what I'm willing to do. It's a lot higher than you seem to be suggesting, but now I now it's there.
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I... no, you're right. You're strong. Way stronger than I could ever hope to be. And I want... you should want to continue to push those limits, to be as much as you can be. I'm being selfish. Really, I am.
B-but... you have to understand something... ulp...
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I... I care about you... a lot, okay? Please don't make me say it. You understand, right? So please, please don't make me say it.
If something were to happen to you, I'd never forgive myself. If you were to die, Asuka, I would die, too. This probably sounds pathetic and stupid and a lot of other things, but it doesn't matter. I'm just so worried. And I shouldn't be, because if anyone can take care of themselves, it's you.
What I'm trying to say, Asuka, is that I can't afford to lose you. More than anything in the world, I... I want you to stay next to me, and laugh at me, and call me names, because--
J-just because, okay? There, you can blow me off now, but now at least you know why I'm acting like such an idiot. I can't help it. I don't want you getting in over your head. That's all.
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I...that's...never thought you'd actually...
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But it's...it's not going to be me.
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Damn you. Damn you, Shinji! It was fine how it was but now you made me...run away. Dammit...
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I'm not giving up on you, dammit. Not by a long shot.
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