My life is a run-on sentence right now
I feel so fucking useless today even though the past couple of days have been a blur of work, and today probably won't be any different since I've been putting off this research paper for international relations, and it's finally caught up to me so now I'm writing about the causes (using some variation of hegemonic and/or security dilemma theory) of the 1967 War between Arab states and Israel, which I had completely written off as a proxy war between the Soviet Union and the US, but now it's looking like Abdul Nasser and the Egyptian cabinet played a much more important role than I'd previously thought and all I can think about right now is "when am I going to be able to shower?" because that's how little time I've had recently but somehow even though I spend all of my time working, I feel like I have very little to show for it except theoretical musings and obtuse conceptions of existence that do more to confuse everything than explain anything and I'm just hoping that things will improve this weekend because a friend is turning 19 on Friday and there's a fencing tournament on Saturday and oh, God, I just want to be finished with all this work!