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Mom's colostomy surgery has been over for almost 24 hours. She still has not come out from under the anesthetic. Her pupils are unequal but reactive. She does not react to any stimuli. She's on a ventilator, NG tube, and miles of wires and IV's. It's absolutely horrible how she can look so much like a corpse, and look so uncomfortable at the same time. I know it's only autonomic movement, but she keeps shaking her head, and it seems so much like she's saying, "No, No" to what has happened to her. We had a choice, OK the surgery, or keep her doped up on increasing amounts of pain meds until the gangrene rotted her insides enough to kill her. We decided to hope the surgery would give her a chance at some further quality of life. Talk among the family is wait till the beginning of next week. If she doesn't come out of it/come around, take her off the vent and see what happens.