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so i started my new job full time as of 630 am on monday, and it has been kicking my ass eversince.its pretty much a drillers assit...ie the bitch. heavy lifting and constant motions over and over...and long hours.pretty much i'll be on OT early thurs. the money is nice, 11 an hr and the ot will rock. so for that i will bypass my constant aching arms and tired feet.
other than not not much is new, jeff and me with be getting a new house in the begining of march so i can take sheba when my sister moves so that will be cool.
valentines day looks like it will be like the rest, adam without so much as even a date let alone anyone.in my darkest hours i've thought of posting on some online site or asking freinds to get my as little as a blind date but i've strayed away from those ideas once i realized how nothing will materialize out of either.
i love getting drunk, it makes me forget everything and i actualy talk to people, although as of late i feel like i've been making even more so of an ass then i normaly do, why i do not know. but the on part of it all i dont look forward to is when i finaly go home and i'm sobering up,laying awake stareing at my clock or ceiling,wondering where i went wrong in everything, and why i cant even get a dam kiss, a meaningful one. i'm the total wrong of how i should be, with being hurt so much i should be gunshy and not want to open up, but like a retard i always do and it bites me in the ass.
i've pretty much come to terms with the fact that i wont meet anyone before i leave, and more than likely if at all a couple months after i get out of boot, so in resonable guessing i wont meet anyone for at least another year if not more, to add to the 1 it has already been....but one can always hope against hope i guess
other than not not much is new, jeff and me with be getting a new house in the begining of march so i can take sheba when my sister moves so that will be cool.
valentines day looks like it will be like the rest, adam without so much as even a date let alone anyone.in my darkest hours i've thought of posting on some online site or asking freinds to get my as little as a blind date but i've strayed away from those ideas once i realized how nothing will materialize out of either.
i love getting drunk, it makes me forget everything and i actualy talk to people, although as of late i feel like i've been making even more so of an ass then i normaly do, why i do not know. but the on part of it all i dont look forward to is when i finaly go home and i'm sobering up,laying awake stareing at my clock or ceiling,wondering where i went wrong in everything, and why i cant even get a dam kiss, a meaningful one. i'm the total wrong of how i should be, with being hurt so much i should be gunshy and not want to open up, but like a retard i always do and it bites me in the ass.
i've pretty much come to terms with the fact that i wont meet anyone before i leave, and more than likely if at all a couple months after i get out of boot, so in resonable guessing i wont meet anyone for at least another year if not more, to add to the 1 it has already been....but one can always hope against hope i guess