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well i cant remember if i jus blocked it oiut or i found out but i jus realized for sure lisa is married now,from going through old convos and texts.she will always be "that" girl. the girl that was the 1st real one to awaken me to the shit hole that is a relationship.she said she loved me then cheated on me, i know i'm not that intellegent but i could never figure out how someone could do that to another person.to jus purposely lie in order to hurt deeply.i had asked her to marry me, i was young but i knew i loved her, i jus new. now finding out that she found someone she definatly loved and married them jus kinda ties up a loose end but definatly leaves a void.jus the way how she txt me and said "i'm married now" and i replied thats cool i hope u to are good and happy together.then she said "are u sure" and i said yes...then she ddnt respond, i know she txt me only to make me feel like shit.i fear i will go the rest of my life and never see why it is that people like to intentionaly cause me pain in one way or another. is it like when i watch AFV or wildboys? the joy of seeing someone make an ass of themselves? is that why people laugh at me because i'm a constant ass?i just dont get it