pardon me while i burn, and rise above the flame
It's been raining like crazy here...but I expected that, I suppose. I'm pale and overworked. But what better to throw all of my empty hours into?
I thought about TJ a lot the other day and was brought to smiles; I don't miss our relationship but I'm so thankful for what we had. He set so many standards for me, standards that I didn't know how to set for myself. I'll never forget the flowers, or the letters, or the random goodmorning/goodnight phone calls. Surprises. Happy things that brightened up my life just a little bit. I was reading my journal last night before I went to bed and realized how much inner turmoil I was still dealing with when TJ and I were together, and I felt even more grateful to him for being so perpetually patient with me and waiting, always waiting.
He reminds me of everything good that is to come.
So yesterday I walked around, eyes twinkling, and I laughed. Bursting with...love? Something fabulous. 311 and Incubus. Crazy love songs that always held some sort of hidden meaning.
I've been blessed, so many times.
I thought about TJ a lot the other day and was brought to smiles; I don't miss our relationship but I'm so thankful for what we had. He set so many standards for me, standards that I didn't know how to set for myself. I'll never forget the flowers, or the letters, or the random goodmorning/goodnight phone calls. Surprises. Happy things that brightened up my life just a little bit. I was reading my journal last night before I went to bed and realized how much inner turmoil I was still dealing with when TJ and I were together, and I felt even more grateful to him for being so perpetually patient with me and waiting, always waiting.
He reminds me of everything good that is to come.
So yesterday I walked around, eyes twinkling, and I laughed. Bursting with...love? Something fabulous. 311 and Incubus. Crazy love songs that always held some sort of hidden meaning.
I've been blessed, so many times.