Anchor in this havoc
I realised that I feel very uncomfortable when I read a page full of vulgarities, and even more so when such terms are used to express things/ideas that are not worth a thing. I think it scares me that everyone has this side of them and I'm afraid one day that side of me will show and i'm so afraid and it's so ugly. The worst part would come if I didn't even realise it showed. :/
Terraces w Max, Running in the rain w Mich, Talking to kayhian and some others and it was then that I realised that these were the moments were life slowed down and a breather was taken.. It felt good to talk, but it brought up so much more question marks and reflective thoughts and fear and confusion, it's like a never ending cycle. But those were good times, I'll never exchange it and I'll want it again.
I played teengames yesterday and it was a good experience albeit the results but I had great fun and it felt really really good running and sprinting and cutting and doing stuff that I haven't done for quite some time. I think frisbee have lessons that could be applied back to netball, not merely gameplay but also the mentality. Yesterday I felt so free, I felt like I was and could be fast and could be even faster. It was a good time under the sun, can't wait for the coming thursday/monday.
The weather forecast says that it's gonna rain for the next few days. It'ls gonna be cold, I hope I won't freeze but I can't wait for the showers from above and the clear night skies that accompanies after.. I like the comfort the dark blue skies give, its just like a blanket that will give me warmth and protection :)
Cravings again, I will go get yogurt icecream this week.