parallel universe in a bubble
Have you ever had this familiar smell or scene that strikes something in you? It makes you remember of things that had already passed.
I think there are some forms of soliditary that I appreciate, that I would sometimes prefer for people to not barge into it. It's like this little bubble of my own, not the delusional unknowing kind of bubble, but more like a state where I wish to have that freedom of space to be. My body is amazingly adapting, finally, but this period is trying and I feel rather inbalanced but its okay, the sun will shine after the storm. What that is seemingly normal-bad now will just become what is truly normal, I hope I get through these period first. Each time my body tries to adapt, it's like a trying process all over again.
I've been having weird illusions and dreams that keep me awake at night, my body seems to tensed up to sleep effectively. This is not good and should not be happening. Lord, I just pray for the illusions to go away, watch me whilst I sleep and keep me safe at bay. The illusions are making me feel oddly empty and weird in the day, I don't like such a feeling. What happened to cotton-candy like clouds and pink sunsets? Parallel Universe maybe.
Hurdles 2 days agao seemed to screw my back up again :/ Stretch dear girl stretch, you need to make your promises and commitments count. So many things to work on, I will be motivated! I think it scares me how distance between 2 individuals can differ so drastically, so near yet so far seems so appropriate so often, and change between people seems even more constant. I've been a little far away from some people recently, it scares me how easily things may change. Mhmm jwen and I breached an interesting topic today, based on a comment made by an outsider..maybe this is what the term, 旁观者清, actually means. Then it strikes the thought back memory lane to a few posts ago. What do people see?
rose-tinted shades.