bad luck

[recklessthinker]

well all i can say is that i am having horrid luck no really i am. why well lets say everything and everyone seems to be against me. well at least fomr my point of view which is pretty limited to what i a)want to see b)what i see and suspect. today o got a journal a real one where i'm going to write my deep thoughts things that i don't want to tell anyone yet want to tell someone...i have no one to trust anymore or even to talk to i'm tired of people saying they know me and not really listening to me. hence the journal where i'll keep thing so i can review and well sorta tell someone (yes my journal is now someone). today i walked home after i went to barnes and nobles and on my way back i was talking to myself, alot, loudly. I needed to vent. what i said sorta unsettled me but it was what i truly thought and i had some fun with it cause i made a speach which i wanted peopleto hear that and i made a story in my head about how life could be if i said that at the creative writing club. that was interesting, out of all the stories i made i liked the one today cause it was kinda insane and could impact people, that and i felt just a bit better. i'm going to do an experiment i'm not going to see anyone, change my seat and not start conversations with anyone. i'm going to see what happens and if anyone notices. well thats if i can keep myself from doing that which might not be to hard. maybe i'll start conversations with people i don't mind talking to, poeple i feel don't need to be included in this little experiment. o and also i got a D in my math midterm...i was hoping a B...
lastly i think i might be jealous...why well thats stays between me and my journal which i'm taking to school cause i don't trust anyone at home.