Clarification
Yeah, yesterday some I heard a couple of different things from different people and after the first one I was already in a bad mood, but when I heard the second... I kinda cracked and just sank in my seat... I felt like one of my strongholds had fallen, and I didn't know where to turn. I still kinda feel like that, but the sting is gone, replaced with slightly numb feeling and a voice in my head (eerily sounding like me) is saying "you knew this was going to happen. why are you so suprised? did you really think your dream would come true?" But yeah anyway what I'm saying is, I wrote that last night immediately after hearing that thing, right when my emotions were running high (or low, depending on your point of view). But what can I say? That's exactly how I felt at that moment, so that's exactly how it came out, that's why a lot of it isn't even complete sentences. OK well that's about all I wanted to say, so this is the end for now.