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I'm getting better at simply staying in the moment and staying open, not forcing things, not demanding a certain result. I'm trying to play my life by ear -- by listening to my heart and seeing if things feel right. The only thing I demand is the stillness. I let my life be led around other than that.
Obviously I've been doing a lot more writing. I'm hoping that my writing will be leading me somewhere more substantial. I don't know what happens next. Just suspicions. If they are correct, I certainly don't know how I'm supposed to get there, if I'm supposed to get there.
Everything feels in flux, which is a definite step up from feeling like I'm in stasis. Flung upwards? downwards? against the wall? Even a devastating crash might be better than staying on the treadmill.
Obviously I've been doing a lot more writing. I'm hoping that my writing will be leading me somewhere more substantial. I don't know what happens next. Just suspicions. If they are correct, I certainly don't know how I'm supposed to get there, if I'm supposed to get there.
Everything feels in flux, which is a definite step up from feeling like I'm in stasis. Flung upwards? downwards? against the wall? Even a devastating crash might be better than staying on the treadmill.