Nov 11, 2006 18:32
It has been far too long since I've wrote on the love of my life and the one that I truly believe that I will spend the rest of my life with. Her name is Monica. So heavenly and so kind, she is sweet as sugar and so adorable to match it. When I think of her I find myself at ease and comforted in the fact that I am with her. I thank the Lord for putting her in my path and making her a vital part to my life. She is my rock, the one that I can always count on when I am in need and when I am at my lowest. She always knows how to make me smile and I find it nearly impossible to stay angry at her for more than a few moments. She can be so silly that it helps me take down my guard and relax. She takes the complete grind and seriousness out of my life when I need it most. Too often I find myself over analyzing everything and looking at every angle of every aspect of my life. She brings me back down to earth and reminds me that life isn't all work and no play. She reminds me of how much she truly means to me and how much I love and care for her. She is my sunshine and without her my life would be so much less meaningful. She gives me a reason to be a better person and remember the levels of character and integrity that I am capable of. She is teaching me how to look pass the mere definitions of words and to look further into the emotion behind them. That is not to say that I am not an emotional or passionate person, rather that I communicate more effectively through a more rigid and intuitive approach. She has helped me learn the capacity of words and taught me to be more receptive to a more emotional language of communication. She has opened my eyes to a world that I was not that aware of and often ignored.
She is beautiful beyond the words of man. She in my mind is such a natural beauty, meaning that no matter the time when I see her I always am in awe of her beauty. She is without question the only girl that I have eyes for, because to be honest, in most cases the girls that most guys might find attractive are fake and superficial in their beauty. I've seen the dressed down, no makeup Monica, and she remains so unwavering in her beauty. She is someone that I can easily imagine myself waking up to every morning. She has such a tenderness about her that I find myself being so protective of her. She is without question thee most giving person that I have ever met, very selfless in her intentions. She loves those that are closest to her with so much passion that she is quick to come to their defense. Her loyalty is unmatched with both myself and her friends. She is dedicated to defending their honor when it is unjustly criticized or infringed upon. I have so much respect for what she has become. Her composure is amazing when taking abuse from those small and immature people that look to rattle and break her. Though I know that she is so fragile she demonstrates to most everyone to be a person of strength and integrity. One of the most attractive traits of her is her moral standing and character. This is one of the most important characteristics that I would look for in a mate. I want to know that I will always have someone on the same page as me when it comes to conflict of interests with those around me. Furthermore, something that I absolutely treasure in a mate is someone that will encourage and sort of be my cheerleader. I plan to take on such substantial goals that to accomplish such things requires knowing that I always have someone in my corner rooting for me to succeed. My friends are quite capable in doing this, but I find that a more intimate and personal motivation is necessary to succeed. I need to know that whatever I decide to do, no matter the difficulty, that there will be someone there to encourage me and have unwavering confidence in me. Though she is often concerned about me, she is confident in my capabilities in all that I do and for that I am truly grateful.
She is so many things to me, that without her in my life I would be lost. My love for her is what poetry is motivated to be written about and what films aspire to demonstrate. She is my one and only and sometime soon she shall be my wife and I will live out my life in happiness knowing that I have found the one that I am meant to be with. We've hit some snags lately with the adverse living proximity. She seems to be so far away, but that fact has done nothing to dampen my love for her. I long to see her and hold her in my arms. Daily I am faced with the fact that I know that I can not see her and that I must look to the next visit. This distance is the ultimate test of love and a chance to grow in our love for each other. One thing is clear though, my love for her will only grow with each day that I am together with her.