Life and Love
Well just feeling a bit consumed by the moment and just feel as if right now politics are the least of my worries, so the political rants are on hold for now. Right now I feel handcuffed by distance. The one that I love is hurting and feeling isolated and alone. I struggle with the inability to heal her wounds. The Lord does His best to comfort her, and yet still she hurts and regrets. Never have I felt so helpless. Not one relinquishing control lightly, this pains me in such a way words can't describe and yet, this pain barely grasps the sadness that the one I love feels. My love though unwavering, can't wipe the tears away and fails to hold her when she feels weak. My love for her has known no bounds and yet at this moment in time it does little to comfort her. At a time when she needs me most I'm unable to console her and keep her calm and at peace with herself and her life. I know that this is a learning experience for her, and that it's God's will. I just pray that she can gain the strength to pull some sort of happiness out of the situation. Always being a person of action, I sit here helpless, only capable of conversation, rather than being there to tell her that everything will be alright. Right now she feel cut off and all I can do is struggle to mend the gap. Frustration fills me not because of her, but because of the sadness that consumes her. I have a fury inside with frustration, and little can be done with exception to prayer. I take solace in the fact that I love her so dearly and maybe she can somehow feel that love from such a far distance away, so that in some way I can comfort her. She is the only one whom I feel emotionally connected to. She is the only one for me and the only person who can fill the gaps in my character and the only one that keeps me on an even keel, balancing me in such a way as to correct any inadequacy that I may have. She's my center and right now she's without hers. Oh how I love her, my dearest Monica.