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I have a vivid imagination. I try not to think or daydream about my life because when I do, it never happens. I want to create a baby. I've been imagining us having a girl. I really don't care. I just want the baby to be healthy.
I feel inadequate to the women he's already had kids with. I know I shouldn't compare myself to anyone but at some point in time we've all done it. I've inherited kids and grandkids but I still want my own.
I don't want to be talking about this a year from now. Still wishing I had kids. I need it to be a reality.