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..yea
Current mood: sad
i really hate myself...sometimes its just too much to handle and i wish i could just bang my head against the wall and knock some of the memories away or some of these feelings away and maybe everything would be ok of course things are never that easy huh....schools coming i'm scared to go back to that place to many bad memories...to think that one person could have changed that just one person but i didn' thave that one person or in that matter any person at all...*sigh* and i'm tired of the whole 'it'll get better diane' i've been waiting 5 years for it to get better and it's gotten nothing but worse and worse and worse. i wish i could just hide from the world. I'd be happier being alone forever no pressure no heart break just me and myself that's all i've got and it's all i need....that's all i've got to complain about for now.
Current mood: sad
i really hate myself...sometimes its just too much to handle and i wish i could just bang my head against the wall and knock some of the memories away or some of these feelings away and maybe everything would be ok of course things are never that easy huh....schools coming i'm scared to go back to that place to many bad memories...to think that one person could have changed that just one person but i didn' thave that one person or in that matter any person at all...*sigh* and i'm tired of the whole 'it'll get better diane' i've been waiting 5 years for it to get better and it's gotten nothing but worse and worse and worse. i wish i could just hide from the world. I'd be happier being alone forever no pressure no heart break just me and myself that's all i've got and it's all i need....that's all i've got to complain about for now.