I'm not over it.
I realised last night, I'm not over everything that has happened with matt.
I'm not over most things that have happened to me. I have never allowed myself time to get over anything and last night, I went into the cellar and saw all of my things still packed up from matt's and I got upset.
It's hard living here parents don't want it mentioned, not able to freely talk to anyone about it I just feel bit misplaced and out of touch with myself. I feel bit alone, and unloved, there is noone I can just lay with and hug I really couldn't tell you what I want at the moment. My normal trend is to find someone to be with straight away and I'm preventing me from doing that so feel odd.
It's odd not having anyone to be with. All the blokes I've been interested in lately haven't worked out.
Job is sucky. Going to apply elsewhere see how that works out. Just bit fed up of everything there at the moment it all seems so unorganised. Everyone has left, nothing really to do there. Just a bit meh!!
John is in his own little world, haven't heard from him since I argued with him when he was last drunk. He contradicts himself and doesn't make any sense when drunk I can't keep up with him, and he won't accept logic or sense, he just rambles on in his own one tracked tangent trying to explain the reason noone wants him, when it's obvious, he won't talk to anyone new, he keeps moaning that noone wants him, he comes on far too strong if someone gets interested or puts them off by complaining noone wants him. Or furthermore goes on about how he cant have sex rah rah rah I can't hack it any more, I generally can put up with most people or things, but at the moment I can't handle John, I've tried to help him but I can't at the moment. I'm down myself enough about things.
I'm not over most things that have happened to me. I have never allowed myself time to get over anything and last night, I went into the cellar and saw all of my things still packed up from matt's and I got upset.
It's hard living here parents don't want it mentioned, not able to freely talk to anyone about it I just feel bit misplaced and out of touch with myself. I feel bit alone, and unloved, there is noone I can just lay with and hug I really couldn't tell you what I want at the moment. My normal trend is to find someone to be with straight away and I'm preventing me from doing that so feel odd.
It's odd not having anyone to be with. All the blokes I've been interested in lately haven't worked out.
Job is sucky. Going to apply elsewhere see how that works out. Just bit fed up of everything there at the moment it all seems so unorganised. Everyone has left, nothing really to do there. Just a bit meh!!
John is in his own little world, haven't heard from him since I argued with him when he was last drunk. He contradicts himself and doesn't make any sense when drunk I can't keep up with him, and he won't accept logic or sense, he just rambles on in his own one tracked tangent trying to explain the reason noone wants him, when it's obvious, he won't talk to anyone new, he keeps moaning that noone wants him, he comes on far too strong if someone gets interested or puts them off by complaining noone wants him. Or furthermore goes on about how he cant have sex rah rah rah I can't hack it any more, I generally can put up with most people or things, but at the moment I can't handle John, I've tried to help him but I can't at the moment. I'm down myself enough about things.