ZZZZZZZZ. . . sleep . . .ZZZZZZZZZZ
I am just so frustrated; I seem to be so tired all of the time. I try to get 6-8 hours of sleep, but I still manage to be tired. (Someone already told me, I could try for 9 to 10 hours of sleep, but when I do that I just sluggish all day.) I know when I have a schedule my average sleep cycle is between 2 and ½ to 3 ½ hours depending on how hard I sleep and what I am dreaming.
I have been dreaming a lot lately. . .
- Celebrities divorces where they came to me for advice (I have never been married or divorce, how can I give advice?)
- My mom’s house remodeled with college people using it as a dorm house.
- Vampires: where the women are working slaves and researchers for the men: where doctors and nurses are changing patients.
- Shopping where my credit card is empty, but they give me the stuff.
- My father trying to tell how to live to my life and I just completely go off on him. (Actually that dream felt good.)
I am wondering if my sleep is caused by my mono coming back, I have noticed a slight soreness and ache where my spleen is. I heard that mono can come back, but just less severe than the first time.
I noticed if I go to bed by 10pm to 2 am sometimes I wake up a few hours later and I can get back to sleep. So after midnight I try to stay away until at least 3am just so I would sleep all through the night.
I have even tried dropping caffeine after certain hours, but it only seems to make me more tired. I go to bed tired, I wake up tired; this is just irking me.
I am wondering if it could be my teeth. . . I was supposed to have my wisdom teeth cut out in high school, but I was working with my voice throughout the year I couldn’t afford to take time off of my voice for healing. I also didn’t like dentists, but I wasn’t expecting my father’s insurance to drop me at 18, because my step-mother didn’t file my paper work correctly. (She thought they were going to drop anyway so she filed me for government insurance and this clashed my father’s insurance and she never told me. . . damn it.) So I still have my wisdom teeth and they came in impacted which is causing problems for my molars. I also grind my teeth at night when I am really stressed that doesn’t help the situation. (I am worried about my mom and uncle finding jobs to keep the house. They are kind of on a deadline by March when unemployment runs out. I am also a bit overwhelmed with my story, because I feel so far behind.)
Maybe I should clean and exercise more, I just need some motivation.
I just fell asleep watching TV and again I screw up my sleeping schedule. I wanted this posted by 9 pm and now it’s almost midnight. . . grrrr.