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I am picking a room per day:
Yesterday was the back bedroom. I put away the clean clothes, organized the sheets, and picked up the floor. (Tom is to sweep and mop.)
Today is the living room. I really need to dust, clean off the tables; put away my extra books, put away the art supplies, and organize the computer and bookshelf. (Tom is to sweep and mop.)
Tomorrow is the bathroom and apart of the kitchen. I need to pick up the floor, organize the shelves, and sweep and mop. I need make sure all of the dishes are done, clean the fry-daddy, and clean out the fridge.
Thursday is the rest of the kitchen. I need to clean the oven and scrub the stove. I also need to organize the shelves. I need to disinfect the counters, sweep and mop.
I also have to edit 2 ½ chapters by Friday, I just hope I have the energy and focus.
The apartment is clean except for the groceries in boxes or cans that I need to put away.
I just don’t understand why I am so distracted; I just cannot focus.
Health News
I’m dealing well health-wise, except for pollen being in the air. Between the pollen and the dusting I am doing, my sinuses are acting up and I have to take my Aleve D: Cold and Sinus just to breathe. I just hope my health holds up this well as long as it can.
We also are starting to take extra B12, since once and while I have to take antacids for bad heartburn. Here are some interesting facts on B12: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Vitamin_B12
Writing and Arts
I’m currently in a clean and edit mode so it’s hard to pull creative title out of that. Anyway, writing updates: I have gotten through 12 ½ out of 15 chapters on part 3. I hope to finish this part by Friday, so I am really trying my best to focus. I also hope to finish Part 4 by May 20th. I really need to twist some scene and add on Part 4. I want to have it ready for creative space by May 30th and post it on amazon.com as an e-mail by June 21st. (Because I have buy two proofs before I can get my five copies.)
I have a list of other projects I’ve want to work on/finish before Dec 31, 2012, so I will always stay busy. (I will post the list later.)
I have a few issues that have just been gnawing at me.
First one, sprinting, I don’t know if it is just because people aren’t using the group anymore or if a certain people aren’t taking it as seriously as others. I just feel like sprinting is more of a work than fun anymore; it’s more work finding people. I can sprint by myself, but it is just not the same.
The other thing is that I am really discouraged. They had set up a writing chat on Sunday and I decided to go. They discussed a writer’s bio and intro as well how important editing is. If a reader can’t understand what is being read, then there is no point of writing it. However I cannot afford a professional editor and I can’t really get a job in my situation. (I have boyfriend who is disabled and I have spleen health issue in which I cannot lift over 20 pounds without serious pain.) The thing that really discouraged me was that when I went to the online conference, they made it seem that anyone who was determined enough could write, publish, and make money writing a novel. However what they didn’t say was anyone who was determined and had money to help polish and publish the book. I feel like I am hitting a glass ceiling. I have nothing against self-publishing, but I have always dreamt of being main-stream published. How do I do that? (I mean if at one point J.K. Rowling was homeless and then was able to be successful, then why can’t I?)
Something that I really need from writing buddies and my writing groups is how to deal with rejection instead of stating the obvious that money make money.
I am one chapter away from finishing Part 3 and then I have a lot of adding and tweaking to part 4. I hope to have the entire thing finished by May 20th. I am hoping to deal with one chapter per day.
I also have a list of pieces and novels I want to work on and/or finish this year. I will post the list on my writing blog http://RebekahWolveire.wordpress.com
Local Fun
Sunday, we are going to watch yet another pay-perview. However WWE storylines have seriously gone down.
I have been distracted by Sims 3: Pets. I have one family who I had just made simply to complete challenges and now I have three different games, going in three different directions with this family. (In two of the games the dog is lost :-/)
The WWE PPV was pretty good, C.M. Punk did this awesome leap off of the rope onto Jericho that I didn’t think would have been successful. A very bloody Cena did manage to beat Lesnar which was awesome. I am pissed that Lesnar broke Triple H’s arm and I hope they fire the monster for that. I would have had more on the wrestling, but I was sleepy and I didn’t have my notebook.
I really want to finish my writing, so I feel I am going to push that more this month. However I got to go shopping and I had a good time. Tom also bought some Phase 10 cards, and I love that game, even thought I barely ever win.
My computer is finally allowing me to play “Words with Friends” again; we were having problems with flash, but seems to work slow, but it is working now.
Dear Me
Dear Me
You are a good person. You are helper. You are a pretty young woman. You are a supportive girlfriend. You are a good sister and encouraging friend. You have a beautiful voice. You are an awesome story-teller and you will be a successful writer. You will be successful and you will make your dreams come true. BELIEVE IT!
Sincerely
Myself and I
Laughter is the best medicine
Some of my favorite pieces of funny flair:
- I’m a writer; fear me, because you might end up in my story.
- I reject your reality and replace it with my own.
- Write Naked/Nude!
- Words: a writer lethal weapon!
- My villain can beat your villain!
- Stupid book; I need to sleep, but I can’t stop writing.
- Pencil-Check; Paper-Check; Caffeine-Check; Plot-Oops.
- Yes, I am a writer, and yes I do have a real life.
- I stopped fighting with my inner demons; we’re on the same side now.
- Today I will be happier than a bird with a French fry.
- I’m not weird: I’m a limited edition.
- I’ve always wanted to spin around in a chair and say “I’ve been expecting you.”
- Think: it’s not illegal yet.
- I never shut up!
- “Soft Kitty, Warm Kitty, Little Ball of Fur”
- I’m smiling: that alone should scare you.
- Say no to drug; but yes to tacos.
- If you can not be a good example, then be a warning.
- Just give me chocolate and nobody gets hurt.
- If I am quiet then I am probably just plotting.
- I’m not evil, I’m just good with a twist.
- Automatic doors make me feel like a JEDI.
- AWW! THAT IS SO CUTE! You actually think I care.
- HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA... No.
- If you met my family, you'd understand.
- HAHA. Wait, what?
- We're so cool ice cubes are jealous.
Soap Operas
There hasn’t been much that has gone on, but then again, I have talked much on the phone and I have been hiding away. I really like keeping my conflicts and drama in my novels and stories.
I visited my mom yesterday and the visit was hot, but nice. It just seems that I had to pick the only few days that it hit the high 80’s to visit my mom without A/C.
We celebrated my uncle’s birthday early: we had cake and played Phase 10. We went shopping and we got groceries and clothes. (I got two shirts and shorts that look way too long on me, because I am short.)
Anyway my father keeps asking about my brother and my brother asked about my dad . . . grr, they need to get over themselves and talk to each other. I am NOT their middleman.
Speaking of middle man, I feel my brothers are in the middle of my nosy father and bitter ex-stepmother. My warped ex-stepmother is being coached into twisting the entire situation to make it sound like she was the victim; however, I read all of the transcripts: she was clearly seeking attention, intimacy from other sources as well as talking about my father behind his back. My father is still very hurt and angry and he keeps questioning the boys on their conversations with their mother. (I think he is seriously paranoid.) I think they should both do counseling, and be honest with themselves.
Spiritual Edge
Music, to me, is one of the most powerful things. Music takes me to places I can mentally describe; they get me through everything. Here are some lyrics to some of my favorite songs:
"A Song to Sing" By Hanson
Goodbye four leaf clovers.
Hello gone awry
Don't cry the fight ain't over
Unless you let it pass you by
I've never been this
Longing for your lovin'
I've never been so
Wearin' down to nothin'
I've never been just
Looking for a reason.
So maybe you've been thinkin'
Blue yonder dreams
And second hand shoes
You're so far gone,
That you're left to lose.
It's too late to go home
All alone.
Your the tar in that
Old cigar
And the worn out cable
On a cable car - and,
You're too tired to admit
You've gotta choose.
I'm looking for a song to sing,
Looking for a friend to borrow.
I'm looking for my radio.
So I might find a heart to follow.
Don't Wander Through This Glassy Surface
Expecting To Find More Than Me
'cause What Am I Without A Purpose
But A Lone Mirage To See
"Weird" By Hanson
Isn't it weird. Isn't it strange.
Even though we're just two strangers on this runaway train
We're both trying to find a place in the sun
We've lived in the shadows, but doesn't everyone
Isn't it strange how we all feel a little bit weird sometimes
Isn't it hard. Standing in the rain.
You're on the verge of going crazy and your heart's in pain
No one can hear though you're screaming so loud
You feel all alone in a faceless crowd
Isn't it strange how we all get a little bit weird sometimes.
Sitting on the side waiting for a sign, hoping that my luck will change.
Reaching for a hand that can understand, someone who feels the same.
When you live in a cookie cutter world being different is a sin.
So you don't stand out. But you don't fit in. Weird.
Sitting on the side waiting for a sign, hoping that my luck will change.
Reaching for a hand that can understand, someone who feels the same.
When you live in a cookie cutter world if you're different you can't win.
So you don't stand out but you don't fit in. Weird.
Isn't it strange how we all feel a little bit weird
Strange, how we all get a little bit...
Strange, 'cause we're all just a little bit weird sometimes.
"Me, Myself and I" By Hanson
Well it's hard to see you don't belong to me
'Cause I gave you the best part of my life
Well, I tried to be everything that you want me to be
But I don't have to give you reasons why
'Cause all that's left is me, myself, and I
I'm not gonna try to forget
Maybe happiness Is worth the chance
Of a bitter end?
'Cus here at the end of the road
I don't really care who is right
I'll give you the last word tonight
'Cause me, myself, and I will never be alone
We'll find a way to get along
And we'll be fine
When all that's left is me, myself, and I
Myself and I will never be alone
We will find a way to get along
And we'll be fine
When all that's left is me, myself, and I
La do do, la do do
"Last to Know" by Three Day Grace
I'll be the first to say
That now I'm okay
And for the first time
I've opened up my eyes
"Never Let it Go" By Three Day Grace
This world will never be
What I expected
And if I don't belong
Who would have guessed it
I will not leave alone
Everything that I own
To make you feel like it's not too late
It's never too late
"Photograph" By Nickelback
Look at this photograph
Everytime I do it makes me laugh
How did our eyes get so red
And what the hell is on Joey's head
"Cold and Empty" By Kid Rock
And why should i apologize
You knew all along this was my life
You know my ins and outs
All my fears and doubts
"Drift Away" By Dobbie Gray
And when my mind is free
You know a melody can move me
And when I'm feelin' blue
The guitar's comin' through to soothe me
Thanks for the joy that you've given me
I want you to know I believe in your song
And rhythm and rhyme and harmony
You've helped me along
Makin' me strong
Oh, give me the beat boys and free my soul
I wanna get lost in your rock and roll and drift away
Give me the beat boys and free my soul
I wanna get lost in your rock and roll and drift away
"Bitch" By Meredith Brooks
(my theme song)
I'm a bitch, I'm a lover
I'm a child, I'm a mother
I'm a sinner, I'm a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I'm your hell, I'm your dream
I'm nothing in between
You know you wouldn't want it any other way
I'm a bitch, I'm a tease
I'm a goddess on my knees
When you hurt, when you suffer
I'm your angel undercover
I've been numb, I'm revived
Can't say I'm not alive
You know I wouldn't want it any other way
Rebekah’s News © May-April 2012