Why, oh why? * Sighs. . . Am I not flirting enough?
I mean to write this blog yesterday. . . However I have been more exhausted than usual, Thursday we did all running around and we even went out for dinner, but I still couldn’t sleep until 7 am and when I finally fell asleep I didn’t get up until 4pm when Tom woke me up to pay the cable. I was exhausted doing the errands. . . I did them anyway, came home, worked on the 5000 Question survey Part 91 (http://surveybeck.livejournal.com) and crashed from 7:25 until midnight. Then I was still groggy, but I made dinner at midnight and we ate pesto chicken as we watch Death Note.
Anyway, I have been exhausted and my stomach has been acting funny, I have nauseated more and I just have been digestion problems. At first, I thought maybe it was something else, but now I just think my mono is acting up and my stomach just week, because my immune system is far from perfect.
Anyway, why I wanted to write this blog, I just found out about a month ago this girl I used to be friends with just was pregnant in fact she just had the baby last week. I knew she always wanted a kid, because she swears she wouldn’t treat her children the way her mother did. (She never knew her father and he mother got into trouble for drugs so she got pushed onto her grandparents. The problem was since her grandparents weren’t her parents, she felt growing she could get away with anything. To make a really long story short, her mother got sick and died and she married her stepfather . . . it just seems sick to me. She is happy so I guess that is what counts.) We really don’t talk any more, but we have some of the same friends, and facebook just had to tell me to be friends with her, because my friends have her as friend.
I will be honest I am not upset that she had a kid (I am gross out that it was with her stepfather, but I guess they aren’t blood rated, he just plowed both mother and daughter.) I just know how she treated a lot of people before she got married and she hasn’t changed. . . I remember when we would hang out she would start drama with people on her cell phone after I would warn her not to and then she would blame me when everything would blow up in her face. (I didn’t tell anyone until after things blew up.) We were friends on facebook, but then she decided to post harsh things on there like “you can’t be busy, you have no life.” She even told me in a chat once that I can’t get a guy until I learn to close the refrigerator more; creative and cruel way of saying I was fat. She is one of those skinny, people who always think they are right and if they’re not then they flirt with everyone until everyone believes them anyway. (I’m not going to bash her anymore, but I can . . . have many of her dark secrets. That is not why I am worried about her having a kid. . . I just don’t want her teaching her child to be harsh, rude, and believing that all you have to do is flirt or sleep your way out of an argument. She isn’t stupid, but I have her play the fun, dumb blonde card to get what she wants, and she isn’t even blonde.) I am just curious why do people like her get to have doctors make her have a kid with her mother sloppy seconds?
Ever since I found out she was pregnant I had weird dreams with miscarriages or having babies in the bathroom of Wal-Mart . . . I have seen pregnancy on all the shows that I watch (except for The Big Bang theory.) I just want a clear answer and then I want to simply know why . . .
Yes you can get pregnant, but you’re not because . . .
No you and/or Tom cannot get pregnant, because. . .
I want to make this clear I personally do not want to just get pregnant, because everyone else is pregnant, but I have talk to Tom and other people with kids and I wouldn’t mind having something that is me and Tom together. I want to challenge myself to see if I am really the parent type.
I need to go put dinner in the crock pot on low for dinner tonight. Roast, yum.