catz
i surprised myself
i didnt think it would have affected me. after saying oh i dont wanna date anyone for a while after jason so yes we can hangout just dont expect much from me.
i told him how happy i was he wasnt lying to my face anymore about it, just be honest im ok with it.. then it hit me. he had been lying. i realized i did infact have feelings.. it fucks everything up. i had high hopes for you, too. someone new. someone that was not really connected to greatbridge & its drama.. until we found out really is cause there isnt anyone that doesnt know somebody.
part of me was really hurt. from all the lines and bullshit that was force fed. part of me said thats your que, take it and run with it while you can still get out some what unaffected.
and thats when it all came together. i was affected. i am affected. i am interested. im everything i didnt want so soon, let alone at all. from someone whos nothing that i would have ever expected.
oh well. i got flowers out of it and my favorite color, someone pays attention to details.
im not the jaded type. or atleast admits it.
im not even sure i know what it means. hell if i'll let someone else have control.
guadalajaras next sunday for the work party, hopefully will be fun. i mean im 21 it should be that way since i had to take a back seat and babysit last year. but i know how most of them are now. boyfriendsss theyre inloveeee. im like you were inlove with the last 12 bfs you had get the fuck over it. its called lust not love. infatuation, it lasts the first year or so if youre lucky. and after that all ends whos still around... me. so fucking be my driver. you owe me one. if not 20.
i didnt think it would have affected me. after saying oh i dont wanna date anyone for a while after jason so yes we can hangout just dont expect much from me.
i told him how happy i was he wasnt lying to my face anymore about it, just be honest im ok with it.. then it hit me. he had been lying. i realized i did infact have feelings.. it fucks everything up. i had high hopes for you, too. someone new. someone that was not really connected to greatbridge & its drama.. until we found out really is cause there isnt anyone that doesnt know somebody.
part of me was really hurt. from all the lines and bullshit that was force fed. part of me said thats your que, take it and run with it while you can still get out some what unaffected.
and thats when it all came together. i was affected. i am affected. i am interested. im everything i didnt want so soon, let alone at all. from someone whos nothing that i would have ever expected.
oh well. i got flowers out of it and my favorite color, someone pays attention to details.
im not the jaded type. or atleast admits it.
im not even sure i know what it means. hell if i'll let someone else have control.
guadalajaras next sunday for the work party, hopefully will be fun. i mean im 21 it should be that way since i had to take a back seat and babysit last year. but i know how most of them are now. boyfriendsss theyre inloveeee. im like you were inlove with the last 12 bfs you had get the fuck over it. its called lust not love. infatuation, it lasts the first year or so if youre lucky. and after that all ends whos still around... me. so fucking be my driver. you owe me one. if not 20.