Tonight....

[rebeccamilk]

I came home, William was playing the Plastation but jumped up when I walked in.  He had gotten brownies for me, taken a shower, shaved, lit a candle.... and then I told him we needed to just be friends.  How is it that after all he's put me through I still feel like the bad guy?  Maybe it's because I know how it feels to have your heart ripped out of your chest.  I know he loves me in his messed up way and even though he hurt me I still didn't want to hurt him.  I cried, said I'm sorry that I couldn't fix it, gave him a hug..... then cried some more.  Silly me.  I know it's for the best.  He doesn't make me happy.  I mean yeah there are the oh this is sweet and fun and I'm happy moments but I feel like it was all pretend.  So much pain can't just be erased.  Believe me, I tried.  *sigh*

I know happiness is just around the corner I just have to be patient and wait for it.

Saturday/Sunday?

Wake up at 6(in 4 hours)
Shower
Fully wake up at 7 lol
Be ready by 745
Leave Jenns by 8
Breakfast
Leave Daybreak by 930ish
Science Center around 10ish
Home in time to take much needed naps
Then JPRB show and STP!!!!!!  =D
Prolly stay out late
Wake up for church in the monring....ehhh.
Then sisters recital after service!!!  YAY!  I'm so proud of her and glad that my parents let her pursue her dreams.  I know I would have been amazing at the piano if they had let me keep taking lessons but my sister will probably be better than I ever could have been!  =]

After that?  Fair game Batman, fair game.  =P

Well.... I'm retarded for being up this late... so goodnight!

-Keba

Pitter patter pitter patter..... my heart wont stop!!  =]