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So, basically there is so much that I want to say, but I don't want people to think I am a freak, so maybe I'll tell you if you ask. I got home from Sand Diego/Arizona on thursday night, and all my friends ended up coming over to my house. It was freakin awesome, getting to see everyone and such...we played this cool game called "Mafia" we're most definitely going to be playing that one at school...I love it...haha. I didn't really get to hang with everyone as much as I wish I could have. But for the most part, it was really fulfilling seeing everyone. I learned that there are just some people that don't matter anymore. Not that I don't care about them, but just that if they aren't willing to put in the effort, there is no reason for me to make a fully one-sided relationship last. I also made an awesome realization that me and Chrissie are going to be friends forever. We don't really talk that often at school or anything, but when we hang out at home, it's like it always was. We went to different high schools, and hardly got to see each other anyways, so college feels the exact same. We are totally used to getting together and filling each other in on the goings on in our lives. I dunno, it's just great to know that no matter how long it has been, and what happens, we will always be able to talk.
Wow, this is really long, but I have nothing more to do than sit here and wait for my laundry to be done so I can come back to school. I can't wait to see everyone! I know it's only been a week and a half, but I feel like it's been so long...It's interesting what living with your friends will do you the growth rate of the friendship. In some cases, I feel like I know more about everyone at school than I ever would have known without living together. Oh well, it's awesome, and I simply cannot wait to go back to school and to not having a curfew anymore. Doesn't it suck....I mean, my parents are the extreme, but the fact that unless everyone is chilling at my house, I cannot be out past midnight? lame lame lame. I guess the primary point I am trying to get across by this post is that I have recently formed new ideas about myself and the people in my life, and it feels absolutely tantalizing. I love life right now!
So, when I was packing today and found this notebook that I used to write poetry in. Not the best in the world, but I actually decided to submit one of them into this online contest thingy. And a few weeks later I got a letter in the mail saying I was a finalist for the $50,000 prize. All I had to do was resubmit the poem I had written for it to be published in some book or something. And by that time I had lost the notebook I had written it in, only to find it five years later...Oh well, guess it wasn't meant to be...haha. But yeah, I was just reading it over again and it really made me think about the way I view my life in general. Anyways, I decided to post it...
Life's Pain
Though we cry throughout the years,
We always attempt to hide the tears.
Through the pain
We have nothing to gain.
There is no way out,
So you have no reason to pout.
Who knows how it will all end?
We can only hope and depend
On the dreams of survival
And the great revival.
Then we will be redeemed
And it’s as though we all seem,
To be in dreadful sorrow
Soon to be changed in the morrow.
Wow, this is really long, but I have nothing more to do than sit here and wait for my laundry to be done so I can come back to school. I can't wait to see everyone! I know it's only been a week and a half, but I feel like it's been so long...It's interesting what living with your friends will do you the growth rate of the friendship. In some cases, I feel like I know more about everyone at school than I ever would have known without living together. Oh well, it's awesome, and I simply cannot wait to go back to school and to not having a curfew anymore. Doesn't it suck....I mean, my parents are the extreme, but the fact that unless everyone is chilling at my house, I cannot be out past midnight? lame lame lame. I guess the primary point I am trying to get across by this post is that I have recently formed new ideas about myself and the people in my life, and it feels absolutely tantalizing. I love life right now!
So, when I was packing today and found this notebook that I used to write poetry in. Not the best in the world, but I actually decided to submit one of them into this online contest thingy. And a few weeks later I got a letter in the mail saying I was a finalist for the $50,000 prize. All I had to do was resubmit the poem I had written for it to be published in some book or something. And by that time I had lost the notebook I had written it in, only to find it five years later...Oh well, guess it wasn't meant to be...haha. But yeah, I was just reading it over again and it really made me think about the way I view my life in general. Anyways, I decided to post it...
Life's Pain
Though we cry throughout the years,
We always attempt to hide the tears.
Through the pain
We have nothing to gain.
There is no way out,
So you have no reason to pout.
Who knows how it will all end?
We can only hope and depend
On the dreams of survival
And the great revival.
Then we will be redeemed
And it’s as though we all seem,
To be in dreadful sorrow
Soon to be changed in the morrow.