woke up with my hair down & my heart infected

[reason_to_stay]

while the other day i was thinking of love and the beauty of it all....
i also began to think of the negative. like when you like someone and they don't feel the same. how is that possible and why? i feel that should be impossible. it's so cruel. what if it's not real? not meant to be? it should never occur then. ah, it wouldn't be the first time.

what if i fall further than you?
what if you never say a thing that's true?
what if we lose ourselves sometimes?
what if i say too much?
what if i never know what is real and what i make up in my head?

i'm giving up on taking chances
i'm giving up on making passes
i'm giving up

i work friday morning and then have the rest of the weekend off!! i'm going to take it easy, hang with good friends. i need to breathe.