On and On...
I just wanna wRite and not stop. So thats exactLy what Im gonna do. So soRRy if this entRy is unoRganized and and makes no sense. Im just wRiting what comes to my mind, wheneveR...
Today was an aLRight day. I woRked untiL 5 then went on a date with KendRa. We ate Chinese. What eLse? AfteR we went to Best Buy so that I couLd spend money. I bought AviRL, shes hot. VeRy hot... I aLso got Twista, cause eveRyone needs a "ghetto CD" and thats mine. ALong with Eminem! Went back to woRk at 10 to heLp Miss Christie cLose. I Love heR, she makes me Laugh.
Too many peopLe have summeR biRthday's, that means spending Lots of money. But, that is what I do best!! I need to figuRe out what to get him...I want it to be specaiL. He deseRves it. I stiLL dont know what I wanna do foR my biRthday. I was thinking about Big BeaR. It wouLd be fun, oR at Least I think it wouLd be. I dunno? I guess I have time to think. It's ReaLLy fReaking me out that Im gonna be 19. I stiLL cant beLieve it. cRazy stuff. I feeL so LittLe stiLL...Blah. I feeL Like theRe is so much moRe I shouLd have aLready accompLished.
My Room is a mess again. It neveR seems to end. I dont think theRe has been a day that it's been cLean and actuaLLy stayed cLean foR moRe than a few houRs. This is no good. I need someone to constantLy pick up afteR me. aLthough, my caR is a miLLion times woRse. And it's mainLy fRom my tRips to Simi. EveRytime I go up theRe I end up thRowing my cLothes eveRywheRe aLong with a miLLion paiRs of shoes. ALL my CD's end up on the passengeRs seat because I change them so fRequentLy and theRe aRe wateR bottLes on the fLoors. It's a disasteR. Im deteRmined to make tomoRRow a cLeaning day.
I want to move out. I feeL Like its time. Even though eveRything is okay at home again. I want out. I need to know what my Life is without paRents. I wanna be on my own, I wanna gRow up. Just not too fast. I want out of SD, Im sick of it.
LateLy I've been feeLing ReaLLy tiRed and dRained. WoRk is getting to me. I feeL Like its holding me back fRom doing things that I couLd and shouLd be doing. My body feeLs Like its gonna shut down on me. Its haRdLy woRking anymoRe. I dont know how much LongeR I can do this to myseLf...I have a neveR ending head ache, my eyes aRe constantLy on fiRe fRom Lack of sLeep and I feeL supeR weak. I have no idea what Im doing to myseLf. I can onLy take so much. Im just gLad that the stRess fRom schooL is oveR with. I wanna Runaway fRom eveRything. If onLy I couLd actuaLLy do that. Im tempted...
I miss HIM. pRobabLy moRe than I shouLd. But I Love whateveR Im feeLing and I dont want it to stop. He does something cRazy and amazingLy beautifuL to me. If it goes away I think I wiLL cRy. :p
ChRistie says that AviRL Looks Like me but onLy "diRty". I guess thats good?
I want my boob job. haha, I toLd you this entRy was gonna be Random. I aLso want my meRcedes. I must staRt saving my money otheRwise both of those wiLL neveR be accompLished. I wanna be a big boobed bimbo dRiving aRound in my keyLess, fingeR Reading meRcedes...What a wondeRfuL goaL foR Life.
I need to go shopping. I need moRe cLothes. I dont own any shoRts. My summeR cLothes aRe no wheRe to be found.
Alright Im done with this one. I have ran out of things to say...