Crazy life of mine
Wow.. it seems like everytime I think about posting, something major has went on in my life. I miss blogging oh so very much! Since my last post, I am still full of bitterness toward my birthfather and his family.. I just wish that I knew the underlying reason for his hate towards me. I went to see a palm reader right before my last post and she told me that I would find my answer in Church and that I needed to go back. Well, it had been 20+ years since I had really been.I went back. The second sermon that I attended was about inheritance.. it opened my eyes and let me know that it wasn't me.. and it wouldn't have mattered even if it was me.. what my birthfather did to me was wrong and it opened my eyes to the fairytale dream that I've had all these years about where I came from. Real life.. reality.. it's not always what we want it to be.
Since I wrote last, I now have a 3 month old little boy who , along with my 13 year old.. are my world. He was totally unexpected and a wonderful surprise, I got to go in the labor unit with his birthmother and the whole 9 yards. I brought him home from the hospital. I felt like from day 1, when I found out that I was getting him.. that he was God's gift to me, his promise that he will never forsake us. I'm a happy mama.
Since I wrote last, I now have a 3 month old little boy who , along with my 13 year old.. are my world. He was totally unexpected and a wonderful surprise, I got to go in the labor unit with his birthmother and the whole 9 yards. I brought him home from the hospital. I felt like from day 1, when I found out that I was getting him.. that he was God's gift to me, his promise that he will never forsake us. I'm a happy mama.