I dont want the world to see me, and neither do you.

[reannamarie]

Why do I keep doing this? I do it over and over again, time after time. I keep hurting people and myself for you. You keep me coming back to you when I might have found something, but then it doesnt work out and neither of us know why. Well wait, you know why. But I cant know, not yet. I wish I knew, because then maybe it could work. I am

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its like feeling ugly to the world,,,,,

[flashgordon71]

. you dont know what it is to love someone, so therefor you dont understand what her post was about. how can you say you understand?

you have never felt broken. you have never felt powerless. you have never had to learn the hard way. not yet. imagine it though, doing everything you can think of, just to get that special person to talk about what happened. while you are left in the dark as they are off havin a "grand" time. alone with eachother, all these thoughts start racin through your head. you have heard from people at school what they could be doin when they go home together, everyday after school. you try not to think about it, but you cant stop the flood after the damn has been broken. you feel a sense of hypertension coarse through your arms, as you hide your face in your hands, realizing that its not a nightmare. and its like this day after day. there are no breaks, night an day.

this world may not be perfect, but love, true love, is the one thing that makes livin on this earth worthwhile. you cant have true love however, unless you are willing to sacrafice. so until you learn how to do that, im sorry, but you will never understand.

Re: its like feeling ugly to the world,,,,,

[flashgordon71]

thanks Tim. I miss you.

Re: its like feeling ugly to the world,,,,,

[blueeyed_beauty]

f you too. you dont know me either. i know you hate me thats ok. i mean i would hate me to if i was you. oh i could say to much to you, but then people would judge me on it and think im a heartless bitch.
and you think you know what love is and i dont.
ya if love includes being spoiled and getting everything you have ever wanted. yes you know what love is. but that is not the love you will find out in the ugly world. love is hard to find then hard to keep. shut your mouth little girl i was trying to be nice and helpful. but you're so caught up.
tim dosent know shit either...so dont say tim thank you. what the fuck did he he. he was trying to make himself feel better not you!!!!%^%&^%&$#%^%&#$%!@#

Re: its like feeling ugly to the world,,,,,

[blueeyed_beauty]

you dont fucking know me anymore.... so dont telle me if i have never loved. you have no idea. why would i go thru all this shit if i didnt love him.
you think she loves you. she hardly knows you.
why are you so fucking mean to me. go fine someone else to bitch at. i hope your happy fro hurting me. oh and dont call.
i dont have time for people who tell me who i am and what i think.
just please stop.

[reannamarie]

I never said that I loved him, did I? Dont assume. Oh, I never said that I hated you either or that I didnt think that you knew what love was. Who really truley does? I said thanks Tim because you made it sound like the world is the thing that screwed him up like that, but it didnt, you did. Dont blame the world. Oh, and if I recall I was never that rude to you. There is no reason for you to say to me "shut your mouth little girl". Why the hell would you say that? You think that just because you are what.. 2 years older than me that you have SO much more figured out than I do?? Im sorry but I really dont think that you have a huge leg up on me. And one more thing, I NEVER said that you didnt love him, maybe you should read it over one more time. Look a little closer.

[blueeyed_beauty]

one of thos comments are to you. and one is to tim. i never said this world screwed tim up. i dont recall.
and if you dont love tim dont pretend like you do. do write about it. becseue thats what your tellinbg everyone. you are being rediculus. i say shut your mouth becsue you dont know what your talking about and because you are a little girl. so are so many things this world you are shealtered and protected from and as result of the your nieveness, its just more then i can handle.
you just have no idea.

Re: its like feeling ugly to the world,,,,,

[reannamarie]

and one more thing.. what the hell is this supposed to mean?! -->" ya if love includes being spoiled and getting everything you have ever wanted. " Where do you get off saying something like that? You think that I get everything I have ever wanted and have the most perfect life.. dont you? maybe you should learn the facts before you go off and start assuming some shit like that about me. If I am getting your message correctly I think you are trying to say that maybe because my family has money I live the perfect life, because thats what a lot of people assume. Well, just for you and everyone else out there that thinks that, you're wrong. Try being forgotten about when you were 12.. Made to grow up because no one pays attention so you have to do everything alone. Then fianlly after those years someone finally remembers you are there and you're ex[ected to carry on life like nothing ever happend. Thats just a piece of my life, and I got over it. So screw you too. Im not asking anyone to feel sorry for me or anything like that because I know that there are people that have had it MUCH worse. I am just saying that my life isnt filled with roses and granted wishes. Everyone lives through something so dont even start to tell me that I am spoiled and get everything I have ever wanted. Dont even start.

Re: its like feeling ugly to the world,,,,,

[blueeyed_beauty]

exactly...thank you for helping me out there. whatever happened between you and your parent when you were 12 has sent them on a guilt trip obviously. because not only can i see with my own 2 eyes you could have everything any girl can want in material items but tim has told me that you get everything you want and you are spoiled. and evan has talked about how your daddys little girl and how he spoils you and you get everything you want.
now to make up for the past and the lost love they give you all the worldly goods you could ever want. and that is their love to you. provided by possesions of beatiful items. that is the love you betray you know, and live everyday.
thats what that means.

Re: its like feeling ugly to the world,,,,,

[flashgordon71]

Laura,
You make alot of assumptions about Re and her life. You need to shut your freakin mouth cause you dont know what you are talking about. You have no idea the shit she has gone through and is still going through. You graduated this year....so that means your like what..?....18? Then why dont you start freakin acting like it. You act like your 13. Grow the fuck up. And to reply to one of your previous comments Re NEVER said that she LOVES Tim...so when you comment why dont you try actually reading the givin information first. Re is not spoiled either. She deos not get everything that she wants and she is not "daddys little girl" either. She is just closer to her dad then her mom. So BACK OFF! Anything and everything that Re has now she has worked her ass off for. You dont even have a clue about what Re was talking about either. And where do you get off saying that the world screwed up Tim? It was you who treated him like shit...every one knows it...I wounder how many other guys you have screwed up or how many your screwing up right now....are you trying to break a freakin record on destroying peoples lives? Deos it make you feel better about yourself when you hurt people? I hope you change becuase if you dont your gonna regret it. So stop being a bitch. Leave Re alone becuase you dont know anything about what she was talking about. Your a fucking slutty Bitch....so why dont you just go ROT IN HELL.

p.s.
Tim,
I hope you can work out your problems or doubts and have a wonderful life. You deserve to be happy.

Re: its like feeling ugly to the world,,,,,

[blueeyed_beauty]

first tell me why im a fucking slutty bitch. ya thats what i thought, your the one making the assumption.
second... i think you pretty immature for writting the stuff you did too.
thrid...yor're a coward you cant even leave you name.
fourth..why are you sucking up to tim. he dosent want your ass either.
fifth...it was nice of you to try to stick up for your little friend. A for effort.

Re: its like feeling ugly to the world,,,,,

[reannamarie]

I dont understand why you are so rude.

Im pretty sure there is a reason that she called you that, everytime I talk to someone they tell me thats what they think of you.. even before all of this.

She isnt trying to suck up to Tim, she doesnt want him like that. She just feels sorry for him and all the shit you put him through.

She isnt a coward, she just doesnt have a livejournal. Ever think of that one? And besides, I wouldnt want to leave my name either because then I would just have to deal with your ass all over again. But of course, trying to have the upper hand you have to use the "coward for anonymous" excuse.

I dont understand why you are so rude. "Your 'little friend'"? Like I said before.. you are only 2 years older than me. That doesnt make you a better or worse, smarter or dumber person. Im not 6 you know.

No, you know what? You are a jealous person. You are so filled with jealousy that you have to go and try and bring other people down. Im not saying that you are jealous of me or anything. But... if the shoe fits. One of the main reasons people get mad at eachother or try and start something is usually jealousy. Maybe you arent as close to your dad as I am and wish that you were. Maybe you dont like the fact that I do/did like Tim and did have a chance with him until everything happened.

I know someone else you're so jealouse of too that you cant stand it. And its not me. You're scared. I can tell. But going into that is a whole nother subject so Im just going to drop it.. I got a bit side-tracked.

All I am saying is I think I see why you are doing this and its all wrong. I am done with this whole thing though, so dont really expect me to reply back to whatever rude comment you might possibly make back. Im tired of wasting my time on this stupid Drama during the summer.. it isnt even worth it. You're out of school.. isnt that all the more reason for you to just drop it all and not even care about this kind of bullshit anymore? Or are you just addicted to it?.. maybe you have to have it. And so you have to stir stuff up in someone elses life.

I dont even understand why you had to blow this out of perportion.. into some huge ordeal. For me saying "Thanks Tim." For me thanking someone for actually saying something to you for once.

This is stupid.

Re: its like feeling ugly to the world,,,,,

[blueeyed_beauty]

it is stupid. becsue i cant remember when i liked you.
oh and tim was begging for my forgiveness after he wrote that. he knew how much it hurt me. he was just mad that i wouldnt hangout with him. he did that to make himself look good not you. what have i done to tim? huh? you tell me.
im no bitch or slut. but you can think what you want.
and no im not jealous of michelle no worries.
and who is your mislead assumption making friend? what has she got to lose by reveiling her name???

Re: its like feeling ugly to the world,,,,,

[reannamarie]

I just have to ask..

So if you say that you can never remember a time that you have liked me, does that mean you were fake to me the whole time? You were lying to my face and PRETENDED to like me? hmm.. theres a good quality. Who DO you like Laura? Since its going to be so hard to tell. You cant be real to someones face. You had me thinking we were good friends at one point.

But hey, look at the brightside, atleast you have a good poker face.

Re: its like feeling ugly to the world,,,,,

[blueeyed_beauty]

ya know what you little bitch you cant stop being immature now. and actually i have never acted. i say i actually remembered a time liking you because I did.

Re: its like feeling ugly to the world,,,,,

[reannamarie]

Why do you have to keep calling me names?! "Little girl", "Little Bitch".. Jeese.. You had said in your post before.. "I cant remember a time when I liked you" If you read it over that is where I got that idea, and yeah I remember a time when I liked you too.

I dont really think I am being immature either, because what I am saying to you I think through before I post it.. Im not just saying it all out of anger and calling you names. Im not saying thats what you are doing by the way, I am just telling you I am not doing that..