So this is me thinking about it.. To you:
Where to start, where to start..
Ive been thinking a lot about this whole thing myself. We really really need to talk. I dont know what I am doing, or what I am "supposed" to do. No one has ever told me what you told me before, so this is pretty new to me. I just dont understand how you were so ready, and I wasnt. Then I was, and so were you, but then one day you dont know anymore? Now I'm starting to not know myself.. You cant think too much about this, cause then it just brings doubts.. I dont wanna be in something where you are doubting me or I am doubting you. You need to tell me what you want. Do you want me in your life, or dont you? I cant just sit here waiting forever, because by the time you have decided maybe I wont be here anymore.. or maybe I will be so deep in doubts that it just wont work. I never felt like this about anyone except one other person, thats why I am sticking around.. usually I wouldnt care so much. Please, tell me what you want. Dont make me wonder so long we fall apart. I just want to see you, but then again I dont, because I am afraid you dont wanna see me.
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So this is seperate from that.. Today I was talking to Allison, and I narrowed down the kinda relationship I want right now. I just want someone that I can have fun with, not someone who immeadiatly we are incredibly serious. I want to be having fun and falling into something serious without realizing it. No pressure, just innocent love.
Ive been thinking a lot about this whole thing myself. We really really need to talk. I dont know what I am doing, or what I am "supposed" to do. No one has ever told me what you told me before, so this is pretty new to me. I just dont understand how you were so ready, and I wasnt. Then I was, and so were you, but then one day you dont know anymore? Now I'm starting to not know myself.. You cant think too much about this, cause then it just brings doubts.. I dont wanna be in something where you are doubting me or I am doubting you. You need to tell me what you want. Do you want me in your life, or dont you? I cant just sit here waiting forever, because by the time you have decided maybe I wont be here anymore.. or maybe I will be so deep in doubts that it just wont work. I never felt like this about anyone except one other person, thats why I am sticking around.. usually I wouldnt care so much. Please, tell me what you want. Dont make me wonder so long we fall apart. I just want to see you, but then again I dont, because I am afraid you dont wanna see me.
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So this is seperate from that.. Today I was talking to Allison, and I narrowed down the kinda relationship I want right now. I just want someone that I can have fun with, not someone who immeadiatly we are incredibly serious. I want to be having fun and falling into something serious without realizing it. No pressure, just innocent love.