All ya need is love.. love... All ya need is love
i love lazy days... I love it being 230 in the afternoon and still being in my PJs.. i love sitting around watching movies and just hanging out with myself... I'm trying to learn how to like myself a little more. I wish I could say that I don't care what people think about me, but it's not true. I only like myself or feel like I'm worth something if there are other people liking me. I know that's not really healthy, but I'm working on it. Unfortunately I've done something of a 180 to the point of telling everyone to go to hell cuz I don't need them... and that's not exactly true either.
I hate the fact that I don't feel complete if I'm not 'with' someone. I hate the fact that love is so goddamned important. I hate the fact that practically every waking thought I have is lamenting the fact that I don't have someone to spend my days and nights with. Who am I to deserve anything like that? And more to the point, why do I even care?? I have my family, my friends, and (mostly) my health. I have fuzzy critters, a love of life, and a sparkling wit. Why do I think I need anything else?
And then the inner voice that I've strived so hard to silence speaks up once more :
You silly girl... You know better. You have tasted true love, and you want more. You know what it's like to be deliriously happy and fulfilled, and there's no reason you should be denied. Not to mention the fact that you know damn well that all things in nature are designed to exist in complementary pairs. The whole of everything is combined of two equal parts..... half male, half female; combined to form a whole... and this is the reason you can't stop searching... because you know quite well that you are only half of a whole, and no matter how you try, you cannot become a whole by yourself... nature intended for us to find the half that completes us, and who do you think you are to argue with nature.... You can't have light without dark, nor life without death. And more importantly you can't have hate without love. You feel the hatred in you now, only because you've felt love. so buck up there, kid.... it can't rain all the time.
*sigh* ok so would someone mind explaining to my inner voice that I'm damned impatient and quite tired of waiting?
I hate the fact that I don't feel complete if I'm not 'with' someone. I hate the fact that love is so goddamned important. I hate the fact that practically every waking thought I have is lamenting the fact that I don't have someone to spend my days and nights with. Who am I to deserve anything like that? And more to the point, why do I even care?? I have my family, my friends, and (mostly) my health. I have fuzzy critters, a love of life, and a sparkling wit. Why do I think I need anything else?
And then the inner voice that I've strived so hard to silence speaks up once more :
You silly girl... You know better. You have tasted true love, and you want more. You know what it's like to be deliriously happy and fulfilled, and there's no reason you should be denied. Not to mention the fact that you know damn well that all things in nature are designed to exist in complementary pairs. The whole of everything is combined of two equal parts..... half male, half female; combined to form a whole... and this is the reason you can't stop searching... because you know quite well that you are only half of a whole, and no matter how you try, you cannot become a whole by yourself... nature intended for us to find the half that completes us, and who do you think you are to argue with nature.... You can't have light without dark, nor life without death. And more importantly you can't have hate without love. You feel the hatred in you now, only because you've felt love. so buck up there, kid.... it can't rain all the time.
*sigh* ok so would someone mind explaining to my inner voice that I'm damned impatient and quite tired of waiting?