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Updates and Reflections….
I should update you on the upcoming trip and it’s evolution. My eyes are big and after many months of research and planning, the plans have changed in several ways. I’ve met many people who have gone on the road. The thing that I learned most in all of this is that my trip should have a purpose. I know that I’m doing this to find something larger about myself and being on the road for six months is going to do that. I asked myself what I want to see. wildlife? Is it a journey through cultural hotspots of the world? Maybe the trip will be an endless summer. After deep thought and much research, I’ve decided on a trip.
I will go into detail later but the real reason for this journal is for some reflection.
Moving to California was the best thing for me. I think that it saved my life. Many people ask why I am always happy and smiling. The answer is simple, I feel like I have had a second chance at life.
I will never forget the plane ride to San Diego, the events the lead up to it all. I have never felt so much discord in my entire life. I have never felt so much loneliness, failure hate and rage all at the same time. All the things I am not suddenly coming down on me. My legs were swept from under me, the wind knocked out of my life and I was falling apart. I was 24 years old.
I’m quite proud of what I’ve become and at 31 I am still learning about myself. I’ve held a job for five years and through that I brought myself from nasty film that lays beneath pond scum, because that’s how hard I fell, I find myself standing firmly on my two feet. I think the Achilles rupture was a reminder that things can change.
I should update you on the upcoming trip and it’s evolution. My eyes are big and after many months of research and planning, the plans have changed in several ways. I’ve met many people who have gone on the road. The thing that I learned most in all of this is that my trip should have a purpose. I know that I’m doing this to find something larger about myself and being on the road for six months is going to do that. I asked myself what I want to see. wildlife? Is it a journey through cultural hotspots of the world? Maybe the trip will be an endless summer. After deep thought and much research, I’ve decided on a trip.
I will go into detail later but the real reason for this journal is for some reflection.
Moving to California was the best thing for me. I think that it saved my life. Many people ask why I am always happy and smiling. The answer is simple, I feel like I have had a second chance at life.
I will never forget the plane ride to San Diego, the events the lead up to it all. I have never felt so much discord in my entire life. I have never felt so much loneliness, failure hate and rage all at the same time. All the things I am not suddenly coming down on me. My legs were swept from under me, the wind knocked out of my life and I was falling apart. I was 24 years old.
I’m quite proud of what I’ve become and at 31 I am still learning about myself. I’ve held a job for five years and through that I brought myself from nasty film that lays beneath pond scum, because that’s how hard I fell, I find myself standing firmly on my two feet. I think the Achilles rupture was a reminder that things can change.