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I really have no desire to even expaline myself anymore.
My whole life is changing, somethings I am not able to control, some I can and all the rest just comes with age. It's so weird (growing up, that is.)
Something I've always wanted to do, and here I am- in the middle of it.
I am happy with how I live my life, well, with a few minor exceptions.
I have accepted so much in the last few months. I have gotten over the fact that I am not going to be 100 pounds, and that's okay. I'm not going to look like a super model. I am not going to have louis vutton purses and $300 sunglasses. I'm never going to go to Harvard or win the nobel prize. Don't get me wrong, I am in no way lowering my standards- I'm merely evaluating reality, and taking it in.
I am average, and so far from it.
I want to be a good person. I love so many people and never let them know because of both my pride and my enviorment. I think it'd be somewhat overwhelming to release all of the love I keep locked up in my heart. Bring it on. I want to go out of my way for you. To bring you lunch when you're sick or call you when I am outside of your house because I just brought you your favorite burrito. Wite you notes in class and pick you something up while I'm out just because I knew you'd love it. I have no one specific in mind, I wish I could do this to everyone. I want to sit down with someone and talk about all of the positives instead of the negatives. We'll sift through topics like love and friendship, heatache and faith.
I want to change someones life.
I want to prove the concept mind over body.
I want to leave my mark.
You know?