new theory

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it has recently occured to me that maybe my mother was just trying to keep me away from harry.
i can to work and practice
i can go to the plays
no problem
i ask to go to youth group.
attitude.
"well if u really want to..."
guilt trip.

i was watching a movie with her while my dad slept. harry called. i left.

she was going to go to sleep and leave me alone in a quiet house with no escape. bad idea. bad things happen when im all alone and left to think by myself. i remember last time i was in my house alone. i was almost permanently alone.

time to think. time to think. time to think. mental suicide.