Thanks! I' glad you enjoyed it. Their relationship is so messed up that it actually troubles me that I find it so touching and see so much potential for sexiness, but they fascinate me together.
I read this last night, and needed some time to digest it all before replying. It's just...*breathes* WOW. I'm still in this odd ambivalent place re the sex, but I laughed so much at how accurately you capture Walt and Jesse's awkwardly painful dynamic, and their mutually palpable neediness. It's simply uncanny and amazing really :)
And that ending was a lovely twist of the knife. Bravo.
Oh, damn! This is absolutely brilliant. This is just exactly how things would go down between them if they brought sex into their relationship. Including the dubcon, and how Walt is a closet dom and Jesse is a closet submissive and DUDES, PLZ ACQUAINT YOURSELVES WITH SAFEWORDS AND THE CONCEPT OF SAFE, SANE, AND CONSENSUAL. JFC. Because they want things like that, but they're not communicating and they're not putting it into an ethical framework, so it's abuse hotness rather than happyfunteims. Argh. Dear Jesse, it's totally possible to get off on belonging to and obeying somebody while maintaining boundaries. Dear Walt, It's totally possible to ravish and control somebody while allowing them the right to back out when consent isn't, like,you know, PRESENT. FFS. Bruises on your twink's hips can be just as pretty when they're the product of something pre-agreed rather than something you did that made him feel like your shameful mistress/whore
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Er, and now I totally want to write Jane/Jesse pegging fic. Because she seemed to really, really enjoy his shudder-y, nervous, virginal yet adoring gazes and submission to her big ol' heroin needle. It's entirely possible I enjoyed watching that scene rather a lot, NEGL. And I could see Jesse being weirdly thrilled to have her being all kinky with a, dunno, sparkly purple dildo strapped on, harness digging into her slim hips. And, baw, she was all tender kisses and "this okay?" before she slid the needle in. So that would be some sweet shit, man.
Dude. Holy shit. Write it! I would read the shit out of something like that. I miss Jane, too, and I think that would work so perfectly for them. (In another unposted fic of mine, there is implied past Jane/Jesse pegging.) Although, really, I would kind of be excited to read Jesse bottoming for, like, anybody.
Although, really, I would kind of be excited to read Jesse bottoming for, like, anybody.
Yeah. I hear you on that. Though I really like the idea of him bottoming without the situation being such where he feels shamed about it. Or where it hurts in unfun ways. ((sigh)) Subby guys run into such a lot of shit from people with sexist ideas of masculinity and dominance. It's fucking ridiculous.
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This is so bloody amazing. Re-reading doesn't dampen the impact at all, and THE ENDING still makes me want to bawl my eyes out. Damn you. <3
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Thanks so much for all your help and encouragement through this whole process. Too bad the fic has to be so painful.
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And that ending was a lovely twist of the knife. Bravo.
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((sighs))((misses Jane))
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Yeah. I hear you on that. Though I really like the idea of him bottoming without the situation being such where he feels shamed about it. Or where it hurts in unfun ways. ((sigh)) Subby guys run into such a lot of shit from people with sexist ideas of masculinity and dominance. It's fucking ridiculous.
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