Friends???
Friends, How do you keep them really? How do you know a true friend from not? I don't really have a best friend, or someone i could consider a best friend. I do have friends but if i don't reach out to them they forget about me. Are they a bad friend or i'm just forgettable (the latter is really depressing though...LOL)
I experience peer pressure as early (or as late) as 4th grade. All these girls in my class decided they all like this one guy a year ahead of us. I didn't like him, and i told them so. Oooops big mistake, i was immediately kicked out of the loop. They talked about the guy non stop. The worse part is, when i come into the room they all stop talking because apparently i can't know what they talk about. I felt so alone that i caved and called one of them to tell them i did like the guy i was just embarrassed to admit it. Just like that she babbled everything about the guy and what they've been talking about. Is it really that easy to make friends???
I moved and switch schools. I made new friends but i still don't have a close friend. There's not much peer pressure this time, but since i'm new in class everyone already has their own clique, i'm the outsider. Through the years i've gained a lot of friends. I hang with them, eat lunch with them, go out shopping with them. But i never really found a best friend.
Collage came, i made new friends again but this time it was harder for me. I was able to have a group of friends i hang around all day, but i still felt left out. In class, when our professor asked us to pair up, everyone automatically has a partner, while i have to find someone out of our group. These "partners" goes beyond classrooms. They pair up and share secrets and stuff to each other, while i just go around to whichever pair could welcome me for that day. Every night they talked to each other over the phone but nobody calls me except if they had to like if we had a project were working on. I felt like i was prying myself into these close knit "partners". I kept wondering where the heck is my partner??? Why am i the only one without one? I got sick and didn't go back to school for a long time, nobody called. After we graduated, they all went out to apply for jobs, nobody called me to join them. After looking for a job, they decided to have a little bit of fun, they went out of town, again nobody even bothered to call me.
..................i'm just invisible i guess..
I experience peer pressure as early (or as late) as 4th grade. All these girls in my class decided they all like this one guy a year ahead of us. I didn't like him, and i told them so. Oooops big mistake, i was immediately kicked out of the loop. They talked about the guy non stop. The worse part is, when i come into the room they all stop talking because apparently i can't know what they talk about. I felt so alone that i caved and called one of them to tell them i did like the guy i was just embarrassed to admit it. Just like that she babbled everything about the guy and what they've been talking about. Is it really that easy to make friends???
I moved and switch schools. I made new friends but i still don't have a close friend. There's not much peer pressure this time, but since i'm new in class everyone already has their own clique, i'm the outsider. Through the years i've gained a lot of friends. I hang with them, eat lunch with them, go out shopping with them. But i never really found a best friend.
Collage came, i made new friends again but this time it was harder for me. I was able to have a group of friends i hang around all day, but i still felt left out. In class, when our professor asked us to pair up, everyone automatically has a partner, while i have to find someone out of our group. These "partners" goes beyond classrooms. They pair up and share secrets and stuff to each other, while i just go around to whichever pair could welcome me for that day. Every night they talked to each other over the phone but nobody calls me except if they had to like if we had a project were working on. I felt like i was prying myself into these close knit "partners". I kept wondering where the heck is my partner??? Why am i the only one without one? I got sick and didn't go back to school for a long time, nobody called. After we graduated, they all went out to apply for jobs, nobody called me to join them. After looking for a job, they decided to have a little bit of fun, they went out of town, again nobody even bothered to call me.
..................i'm just invisible i guess..