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There seems to be so much going on right now. I have so much to do.
There's apartment hunting. And coming to terms with the idea of living with Aaron. I'm terrified. I love him to death, I really do, but I'm so scared of everything. How do you really know if this is everything that you truly want??
I think part of my problem is what happened today. I love him like crazy, I really do. But sometimes he upsets me so damn much. I went with my friend Kelsea while she got her tattoo done. I've been dying to get another tattoo and I haven't been able to decide what I want. Well, I figured it out there. Just a little libra sign on the back of my neck. Shouldn't be a big deal right?? Well it was. Aaron says that it's unoriginal and a stupid spot to do it. "You can't hide a tattoo on the back of your neck." Now, I'm asking all of you, why the hell would I want to get a tattoo and then hide it all of the time. Plus I have long hair. Um...duh. I can still hide it. So yeah, I'm slightly annoyed. And he is a very jealous person and not very trusting. At least not with my social life. He doesn't like the fact that I've had a social life lately. He claims to trust me but not everyone else and not when there's alcohol involved. I don't think that he understands why I want to go out all of the time. I like it. I have a good time. I'm only 22, I want to have a good time. What's so fucking wrong with that?? He doesn't like the clothes that I wear or how I act. Bah!! I can not stand being told what I can and can not do. Don't tell me not to do it, I'll just do it anyway and then piss you off. Am I overreacting or is he? I just don't know what to do about this.
Anyway, I'm going out tonight. It's Kelsea's birthday celebration. Off to the Blues Club for some good times and good drinks. Apparently there's going to be an after party as well. It's going to be an interesting night.