Make it happen!
“Maybe mistakes are what make our fate... without them what would shape our lives? Maybe if we had never veered off course we wouldn't fall in love, have babies, or be who we are..."
There are so many things that stand to depress me these days. I could sit and cry a thousand tears, but they do not come easy these days. I sometimes wonder if I have littered this world with enough negative energy that the world has taken the proper steps at retribution. I won't fight it, a stand that mirrors the position I have taken in regards to other circumstances life has thrown my way. I am in an awkward position and while it thrilled me in my teens, I did not expect my twenties to be sporadically filled with these types of events. BUT! Life goes on.
I suppose I could stand to be the worlds greatest fuck up as signaled by the 5 or 6 gravels that signaled my guilt, but I refuse to scrap any plan I have made and would have accomplished had it not been for my recent mistakes. I haven't sent out the invitations to my sympathy party just yet. I could second guess myself at every turn these days, but if every step I take will be preceded by failure and followed by shame, then what use is it to do myself a disservice and help circumstance trample my dreams. Even if at the very end dreams are all I have, thats is more than what most people today aspire to gain.
Dear life. If you expected my resignation, I'm sorry disappoint once again. I'm not ready to give up just yet. I have renewed faith and belief. I'll pay off the very last of my social debts and I'll be on the other end of the spectrum soon.
“To dream anything that you want to dream. That's the beauty of the human mind. To do anything that you want to do. That is the strength of the human will. To trust yourself to test your limits. That is the courage to succeed.”
In the most trying times is when your grace is great. It comes in the smiles, support, and love of some extraordinary people.