Aug 18, 2005 22:46
i never wanted to hurt my self my bf would kill me i know that. but its funny on what happens to u on a sad song comes on and u have something sharp in urs arms.at lest it was not my sword or dagger just a lil pin.....my arm hurts but i feel so much worse in the inside my bf has no clue how bad this is hurting me and i cant let him now maybe thats why im writeing it in here so he will find out and come up with a way to help me or maybe im just going crazy out of my mind my arm looks like a fucking idk so manyclose cuts and real cuts with bit of blood so close togethere it looks like differnt type of skin. gio is ur reading this im sorry its just killing me with in wanting u and haveing u pulled away ~tear~ u think i get mad on the phone but thats just me geting so upset i sound mad becouse i feel like im about to break into tears and i have no reason for u to hear that or see that aginei love you gio stay with me forever plz see me gio dont lock ur self up plz fight ur way here..i need u