Jul 19, 2008 21:10
I honestly am sitting here not even knowing how to say the things I want to say. But in the past few days I have been doing a lot of thinking about Devin and I, and was glad to find that in all the time I have been with him in my life I have never been happier than I am now. I can't explain what makes any of this different than the first time... whether it was our break from each other, or how we've both changed during that time apart. I honestly don't know, nor do I care. I feel like none of this is coming out the way I intended. I am happy. I am in love, with someone who I had been missing for more than the six months we were apart. I am so glad that I did not lose him. I walked away from something beautiful because I refused to open my eyes and see it. I just hope he feels the same way... which in my heart I know he does.
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