Things on my mind

Jun 22, 2008 11:10

So despite some rather unfortunate things that are bringing me down, I am very happy right now. I recently got back together with Devin and I am more than happy to say I think it was the best decision I've made in a long time. We really just needed some time apart and in those six months we both changed a whole lot, which was apparently just what we needed. I also made a new friend, Ashlei, whom is the best because she keeps me afloat through this whole nursing ordeal. And to make things even better she's pretty much a lot like me, so we're kind of soul mates I think <3 in the friend way lol. As for things that are bringing me down... my situation with Michael is back to being rocky and honestly I don't care. Honestly if I never speak to him again I'm fine with it, one day if he calls me with an apology then so be it. Until then, as far as I'm concerned he doesn't exist. Then I also decided to forget another person in my life and that is Randall. The other day when I went and pawned his ring that he once gave to me I felt very relieved that he is no longer a part of my life. I just realized that there are people who care about you, and people who care about themselves... and he is one of the latter. I used to think the world of him, that he was so great and had so much potential... now let's just say my opinion has taken a dramatic turn. I've tried so hard to be nothing but a friend to him and he always, always kicked me to the curb. I hope all the things I am typing right now hurt as much as you hurt me. Maybe that's mean of me but I have finally reached my breaking point. I am not going to be walked over by selfish idiots anymore. You either love me or you hate me, and honestly I could care less which one that is at this point. I know I have flaws and I know I am not the greatest person in the world... don't get me wrong... but I am done with all of it. I am living my life for me, and if you have something to say to me about it then give me a call.

Wow I feel a whole lot better know that I've gotten that off my chest.

<3 me
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