NO MORE GAMES
I'm Done. No more tryin. No more cryin. I'm through. i don't think i can possibly get out of this state. Talking to heather about it now....hope she can help? *sigh* this sux.
11:02. ok things are a little better. but not much. still mad. but willing to not be so aggressive lol. still upset, but almost done with the tears that came when i came to the realization that things always get messed up for me. i want things to work with him. i really do. but i hate staying home when i could have been out and that over everything else...makes me pretty mad. growl. i'll edit later.
11:12 am. friday. had soccer conditioning this morning at 8:00. which sucked cuz i was on the phone w/ gaurav, alaina, juliana, marcos, tiffany, courtney and gabby til like, 2. Mind u, all these people were on the phone at the same time. lol. it gets confusing. but yeah. soccer helped to relieve some stress. still mad, but not really. i do though, seem to get this feeling of throwing up when i think about my current situation. so i'll stop. so yeah. again, i'll edit again later. lol this is like, one long running journal cuz i don't want to make a new one...eh.
11:02. ok things are a little better. but not much. still mad. but willing to not be so aggressive lol. still upset, but almost done with the tears that came when i came to the realization that things always get messed up for me. i want things to work with him. i really do. but i hate staying home when i could have been out and that over everything else...makes me pretty mad. growl. i'll edit later.
11:12 am. friday. had soccer conditioning this morning at 8:00. which sucked cuz i was on the phone w/ gaurav, alaina, juliana, marcos, tiffany, courtney and gabby til like, 2. Mind u, all these people were on the phone at the same time. lol. it gets confusing. but yeah. soccer helped to relieve some stress. still mad, but not really. i do though, seem to get this feeling of throwing up when i think about my current situation. so i'll stop. so yeah. again, i'll edit again later. lol this is like, one long running journal cuz i don't want to make a new one...eh.